Suicide at 30 is the only option i have to avoid having a lonely life forever

[Edu Ardanuy]

@endofline2010 At 25 I got pretty and man began to notice me.. I ended up falling in love with a 55 year old man because he noticed me and gave me attention while boys my own age were never interested me whenever I showed interest in them.

This arsehole messed me up in so many ways. He was a work colleague in a job that was my first ever full time job since graduating from my undergraduate degree. Last year this is arsehole humiliated me at work. Long story

This summer I started to bond more with a 30 year old guy from a retail store I normally shop in. Things were going great and then the guy decides to reject me because I am Catholic.

He told me he is an Anti Thiest. Anti Thiesm the philosophical position that theism should be opposed and sees organised religion as harmful.

I told him its OK because I liked him for the person he is. I told him I respect people's right to believe whatever they want to believe because I am very tolerant and open minded person and I will never force my beliefs on him.

I AM SICK OF ALWAYS BEING REJECTED AND NO ONE EVER WANTING ME THE WAY OTHER WOMEN GET WANTED

I AM KILLING MYSELF AT 30. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY ITS ALWAYS REJECTION

NO MORE

"Wish I could fall in love with you and tell you everything is going to be ok - when I know they won't - and love you forever, and be loved". Well. words are just words. One thing I've learned, its definitelly not for everyone. At the very beginning, every single one of my friends were too drunk on dopamine, released by their brains as the result of thinking they were in love, to realize that they weren't actually really paying attention to their partners, to their future wives.
The results?
Nowadays, mostly of them changed partners, ended long term relationships, decided to live all alone, changed paths, changed the way they think.
Back in the day, I fell in love just by reading a poem... all of a sudden I was falling in love.
My take on this is that to have a stable and healthy relationship is hard for everyone, they just pretend, most of the time, things are going well, even if they aren't that good.
I don't know... I have never been anyone's first choice. And it seems its really not for everyone, I think its a matter of being lucky, like, striking the lotery, as my grandma used to say.
Now I don't really care, I no longer want to be on a relationship, but I got your point, and I'm sorry you've been through a lot of shit.

-Sorry, english is not my first language so my retoric might resonate a little weird.

 

[babouflo201223]

J'ai toujours su que j'aurais une vie solitaire. J'ai toujours été trop moche pour l'amour. Je le serai toujours.
J'aurais aimé avoir le courage de me lancer dans le CTB à 30 ans, juste pour cette raison. Cela m'aurait épargné bien des souffrances et du temps perdu...

Désolé de vous le dire, mais être moche ne signifie pas que vous ne pouvez pas trouver l'amour et être aimé.
Pour ma part, je ne m'intéresse pas à la beauté/la laideur, c'est quelque chose qui n'a aucune importance en fait. Je m'intéresse à ce qu'il y a dans le cerveau, les connaissances m'attirent (la beauté non, car elle ne me dit rien en fait) et je suis touchée bien sûr si le partenaire est sensible.

 

[divinemistress36]

"Wish I could fall in love with you and tell you everything is going to be ok - when I know they won't - and love you forever, and be loved". Well. words are just words. One thing I've learned, its definitelly not for everyone. At the very beginning, every single one of my friends were too drunk on dopamine, released by their brains as the result of thinking they were in love, to realize that they weren't actually really paying attention to their partners, to their future wives.
The results?
Nowadays, mostly of them changed partners, ended long term relationships, decided to live all alone, changed paths, changed the way they think.
Back in the day, I fell in love just by reading a poem... all of a sudden I was falling in love.
My take on this is that to have a stable and healthy relationship is hard for everyone, they just pretend, most of the time, things are going well, even if they aren't that good.
I don't know... I have never been anyone's first choice. And it seems its really not for everyone, I think its a matter of being lucky, like, striking the lotery, as my grandma used to say.
Now I don't really care, I no longer want to be on a relationship, but I got your point, and I'm sorry you've been through a lot of shit.

-Sorry, english is not my first language so my retoric might resonate a little weird.

I agree. Very few relationships make it long term