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needtogo

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Jan 9, 2020
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I want to CTB due to psychiatric injury. I kind of want to make a statement so hopefully I can enact some type of change so that more people are aware of the dangers of the medications docs hand out like candy. I don't want to record the video but maybe wear clothing that has the name of the med written all over it in sharpie or something. You think this is a good idea? I can't die for nothing I need to show people the evil that these pills can make. Not saying all psychiatry is wrong at all, but the wrong meds lead me from a happy man to hell. I'm debating jumping from height or shotgun to the face, but shotgun might be quite difficult to acquire for a while. Each day has gotten worse and I'm done feeling abused.
 
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metapod

metapod

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Mar 1, 2020
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i understand that feeling, the doctors pumped me full of meds too. the shirt covered in sharpie sounds like a cool idea
 
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UpandDownPrincess

UpandDownPrincess

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Dec 31, 2019
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It won't work. People will rely on the old standby that everyone who kills him or herself is mentally ill and they will discount anything you have to say as you exit.

There is an old saying that resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. This is similar. The only thing that will change is that you will be dead. Nothing else will be accomplished.

If you wish to ctb, that is your choice and your right. But don't expect anything else to come of it.
 
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s1mplem3

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Mar 4, 2020
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If you want to do it, do it properly.
 
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littlemisssunshine

littlemisssunshine

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Feb 19, 2020
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It won't work. People will rely on the old standby that everyone who kills him or herself is mentally ill and they will discount anything you have to say as you exit.

There is an old saying that resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. This is similar. The only thing that will change is that you will be dead. Nothing else will be accomplished.

If you wish to ctb, that is your choice and your right. But don't expect anything else to come of it.

pretty much this. We are just numbers in their books.Most don't give a shit about us or how ethically they behave x
 
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TAW122

TAW122

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Aug 30, 2018
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Please don't shot yourself in the face. This is what could potentially happen if you do: https://www.nationalgeographic.com/...-stubblefield-story-identity-surgery-science/
Yes that could happen if they placed the weapon incorrectly (such as under the chin - NEVER DO THAT) and/or use the wrong ammo/caliber for CTB'ing, such as not using a powerful enough cartridge (.22lr, .22s, .17hmr, etc.).

However, I'm going to assume that the OP knows what he/she is doing and considering that the OP is using a shotgun, these are the kinds of loads he/she should be using for his shotgun: slugs, 00 buckshot, #4 birdshot, #0 birdshot, to name a few. Those kinds of ammo would be more than sufficient to guarantee success (even with a near miss of the brainstem).

It won't work. People will rely on the old standby that everyone who kills him or herself is mentally ill and they will discount anything you have to say as you exit.

There is an old saying that resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. This is similar. The only thing that will change is that you will be dead. Nothing else will be accomplished.

If you wish to ctb, that is your choice and your right. But don't expect anything else to come of it.
I concur with this, especially the last two sentences in the last paragraph.
 
Grandexit

Grandexit

Experienced
Dec 4, 2019
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There are so many studies and research done on the dangers and inefficiency of these poisons. Can I suggest maybe doing something like a u tube channel talking about these topics, maybe people from here can give their experiences. It would go further than a protest ctb. Or maybe find an organization that works to get the truth out?
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
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Making a statement with suicide is not a new concept, such as self-immolating Buddhist monks. I am not encouraging you to ctb, but I do see value in making a statement of why you are doing it if you choose to ctb. It does not seem from the OP that, like the monks, you are considering ctb as a statement, but rather making a statement concurrently with the ctb.

As @Grandexit said, there are other alternatives, such as starting a YouTube channel. You could contact other organizations and leaders in the cause of public awareness of and fighting against the causes of psych med injuries to see if there is a role for you as an activist and change-maker.

However, if ctb is your personal choice as the resolution for the problems caused by psychiatric pharmaceutical injury, then I agree with you that it is possible to make a non-graphic statement. You could wear clothing as you suggest. You can leave next to your body printouts of research regarding such injuries and accounts of similar ctbs. You can make a well-written statement out of your suicide note, including a photo of the shirt, and send it via delayed email to medical, psychiatric and pharmaceutical organizations and lobbying groups; to lawmakers; to activist organizations; and to independent and mainstream media outlets.

As feminists and post-colonial theorists have been saying for decades, the body is political. Your body and what was done to it are political. Psychiatry and pharmaceuticals are political. Whether you decide to live or to ctb, you have the power to personally and politically engage in the fight with your body, words, and actions.
 
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ctbUniquectb

Pariah
Jan 7, 2020
489
People will ... discount anything you have to say as you exit ...The only thing that will change is that you will be dead. Nothing else will be accomplished ... don't expect anything else to come of it.
There's the visceral pleasure of your last thoughts being on lashing out at your tormentors. Personally, gonna schedule over 9000 "fuck you" emails. People won't care, but it will be an up moment in an otherwise painful life.
 
PrettyMoose

PrettyMoose

Eat my arse, Pain&Sh*tness & Mindf*ckitation Grift
Mar 1, 2020
280
Or it could be suicide as a question, the question being "What the fuck is wrong with this world?"
 
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