Discussion Suicide as a way of revenge

[Kirkinator]

Anyone else also wants to die to get back at someone who wronged them?

I know this is extremely selfish and also one of the reasons people don't view suicidal people favourably, but I can't help but desperately wish to die to make my father suffer. He's been and is a terrible father to this day. I've never met a man more hypocritical such as him. He completely destroyed my self-esteem and sense of worth, he has no empathy, everything is my fault and he gets mad whenever I bring up his hypocrisy or the fallacies in his arguments. He has the gall to make it seem like I have all the problems in the world while he has none.

One part of me wants to succeed in life and move far, far away and never speak to him again. But inevitably as the days go by I end up forgiving him and failing on my promise to always remember what he did to me and never forgive. I don't want to forgive. I want him to die without his child by his side, I want him to spend the last moments of his life completely alone. But I just keep failing on this promise, thus why I want to kill myself. It's definitive.

If I can't move out in about 2 years I'll kill myself. I can't take this demon anymore.

Or if anyone has any tips on how to never forgive someone I'd greatly appreciate it. I don't want to forgive someone who had the courage to be this cruel to their own child.

 

[webb&flow]

The greatest revenge is living and rubbing it in their face by living a good life while they are still hatin'

this will take time, and be a journey; but in the end it leads with you better and separated from your oppressor; leaving them to seethe, leaving you to soothe

 

[fadedghost]

Anyone else also wants to die to get back at someone who wronged them?

I know this is extremely selfish and also one of the reasons people don't view suicidal people favourably, but I can't help but desperately wish to die to make my father suffer. He's been and is a terrible father to this day. I've never met a man more hypocritical such as him. He completely destroyed my self-esteem and sense of worth, he has no empathy, everything is my fault and he gets mad whenever I bring up his hypocrisy or the fallacies in his arguments. He has the gall to make it seem like I have all the problems in the world while he has none.

One part of me wants to succeed in life and move far, far away and never speak to him again. But inevitably as the days go by I end up forgiving him and failing on my promise to always remember what he did to me and never forgive. I don't want to forgive. I want him to die without his child by his side, I want him to spend the last moments of his life completely alone. But I just keep failing on this promise, thus why I want to kill myself. It's definitive.

If I can't move out in about 2 years I'll kill myself. I can't take this demon anymore.

Or if anyone has any tips on how to never forgive someone I'd greatly appreciate it. I don't want to forgive someone who had the courage to be this cruel to their own child.

if he's that selfish and horrible, he probably won't care that much if you commit suicide

this is what you do:

1) get job

2) save up

3) search for remote job while doing first job

4) take remote job in current location

5) ask remote job if you can move to X state

6) job says yes then go to 7 if no go back to 5

7) go to new state,find new place

8) send message you are going no-contract because of past abuse on old number. take sim chip, cut up and throw out

9) get new number, only tell work of new number, find people to chill with

 

[Rihan]

I feel you. I have some thoughts like that sometimes too.
Consider your motivations for wanting to commit suicide. Is revenge or this person your main reason? Do you think that having him feel pain is worth your life?

 

[KinderCorn]

Revenge alone is not a good reason.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

Nah, your suicide won't affect them any. Although he might try to gain sympathy from people, he'll probably say he loved you and tried to talk you out of it.

 

[SDB]

Anyone else also wants to die to get back at someone who wronged them?

I know this is extremely selfish and also one of the reasons people don't view suicidal people favourably, but I can't help but desperately wish to die to make my father suffer. He's been and is a terrible father to this day. I've never met a man more hypocritical such as him. He completely destroyed my self-esteem and sense of worth, he has no empathy, everything is my fault and he gets mad whenever I bring up his hypocrisy or the fallacies in his arguments. He has the gall to make it seem like I have all the problems in the world while he has none.

One part of me wants to succeed in life and move far, far away and never speak to him again. But inevitably as the days go by I end up forgiving him and failing on my promise to always remember what he did to me and never forgive. I don't want to forgive. I want him to die without his child by his side, I want him to spend the last moments of his life completely alone. But I just keep failing on this promise, thus why I want to kill myself. It's definitive.

If I can't move out in about 2 years I'll kill myself. I can't take this demon anymore.

Or if anyone has any tips on how to never forgive someone I'd greatly appreciate it. I don't want to forgive someone who had the courage to be this cruel to their own child.

Sounds like my life, when I was a kid my dad used to drop me off and random buildings and said this where we drop unwanted kids. Then he would drive off. He did this randomly all the time. I was about 6-10 years old. He got a kick out of it.

 

[lon3lyheartt]

Anyone else also wants to die to get back at someone who wronged them?

I know this is extremely selfish and also one of the reasons people don't view suicidal people favourably, but I can't help but desperately wish to die to make my father suffer. He's been and is a terrible father to this day. I've never met a man more hypocritical such as him. He completely destroyed my self-esteem and sense of worth, he has no empathy, everything is my fault and he gets mad whenever I bring up his hypocrisy or the fallacies in his arguments. He has the gall to make it seem like I have all the problems in the world while he has none.

One part of me wants to succeed in life and move far, far away and never speak to him again. But inevitably as the days go by I end up forgiving him and failing on my promise to always remember what he did to me and never forgive. I don't want to forgive. I want him to die without his child by his side, I want him to spend the last moments of his life completely alone. But I just keep failing on this promise, thus why I want to kill myself. It's definitive.

If I can't move out in about 2 years I'll kill myself. I can't take this demon anymore.

Or if anyone has any tips on how to never forgive someone I'd greatly appreciate it. I don't want to forgive someone who had the courage to be this cruel to their own child.

Your father is completely pathetic and a pitiful man. All he wanted was to bring someone down with him, someone to feel as shitty as he feels so he can feel better about himself. But at the end of the day, he's the fkn disgusting monster.

You deserve to live your life better than the way he chose to live his (which was by hurting other people), how can this man live with himself being that empty?

You deserve to heal from the trauma and be happy, please don't let him kill you, he doesn't deserve your presence and he would probably enjoy seeing you hurt yourself like this. He's just a nobody. A sick abuser, that let his disease ruin someone's life.

 

[alivebutnotliving]

i can't lie, it's definitely a pro on my pros and cons list of ctb.

 

[ginadu]

Concentrate on finding a way of moving out. A co-workers partner has killed themselves recently. Most people in work seem to blame the guy for ruining this lady's life. Nobody knows the true background or anything much about this guy or their relationship. It may not become the statement you think it will. It seems unnecessary when all you have to do is move away from this person. Many people go through stages where they have issues with their parents. It might pass. You might figure out a way to have them in your life and have built up enough self-esteem that they can't tear it down.

 

[Forveleth]

People like that most often are not going to take it thr way you want. If he already has no empathy then your death will not affect him the way you want.

Do not kill yourself for other people.

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

Do not concern yourself with the minds of others, for Suncha always told me: "you can't please everyone; control the things you can control, ONE STEP AT A TIME."

If you die, you die; though your father, mother, and even the whole world forsake you, the Lord will bring you up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)

 

[charlavail]

for a long time that was one of the reasons why i wanted to ctb. then i realized that the person i most wanted to get revenge on wouldn't care if i live or die.

 

[tomame]

with your reason to ctb to hurt him

i feel it would be better to keep yourself together despite how he treats you and go no contact after you're able to leave him

i feel he'd learn more from that than if you like yourself but idk