I think I'm more afraid of life than death. I'll jump or lie under a train this week, as my pills run out and without them I will experience seizures strokes cardiac arrest unbearable anxiety no sleep and whatever.
Already gave up and deleted everything. I don't have anything to say really I'm just always attention whoring.
Oh, I also have 10 other lethal reasons to kill myself this is just the immediate one. I kept pushing the date back and scamming people to feed my addiction but I ran out of ways. No I won't go to any doctor and none will help me so don't bother saying that. I take 10 times over maximum dose. I might have taken 23 or 28mg of Xanax within a few hours and I don't feel many effects. I got like 40 dollars left but idk how that will help me suicide. If normal push won't work I'll exit and go homeless severing my only relationship irl with my family that are all pieces of shit and leave this garbage heap of an apartment. Yap yap yap. Start the count, if I'm alive by Monday my life will be over cuz I'll be a half dead vegetable with tubes in all my holes kept alive in ICU probably.
One more dead Pole doesn't make a difference, this shit country is worthless fuck it.
Already gave up and deleted everything. I don't have anything to say really I'm just always attention whoring.
Oh, I also have 10 other lethal reasons to kill myself this is just the immediate one. I kept pushing the date back and scamming people to feed my addiction but I ran out of ways. No I won't go to any doctor and none will help me so don't bother saying that. I take 10 times over maximum dose. I might have taken 23 or 28mg of Xanax within a few hours and I don't feel many effects. I got like 40 dollars left but idk how that will help me suicide. If normal push won't work I'll exit and go homeless severing my only relationship irl with my family that are all pieces of shit and leave this garbage heap of an apartment. Yap yap yap. Start the count, if I'm alive by Monday my life will be over cuz I'll be a half dead vegetable with tubes in all my holes kept alive in ICU probably.
One more dead Pole doesn't make a difference, this shit country is worthless fuck it.
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