pellisetossium
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- Oct 28, 2025
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I'm curious about something that's happened to me my entire life and I wanted to see if it was a common feeling.
I'm 23 years old. I've had multiple romantic relationships, hookups, flings, all that, but I've never been in love with someone and I don't think I even have access to that feeling.
When I first started dating in my teens, I saw it as a "next stage" of friendship. "I appreciate this person so much that I'm going to do all these things that are reserved for a special someone with them". I never felt anything more than fleeting crushes on people that I maybe found a little bit more attractive or smart than the average person, and they went away as soon as the came. When people pursued me, I appreciated the attention, but it wasn't enough to make me interested. To this day, it's not difficult for me to feel attracted to someone, but I can never make the feeling last.
I have deep friendships that have taken years to form with people that I know I love and admire deeply. I love my line of work. I love the music I listen to, the books that I read, my family, my cat. I know love and I think I hold a lot of it, but I can never turn it into romance.
Not knowing how it's gonna end for me, at first I was preoccupied with the fact I was going to die while not having loved anyone, but I don't really care much for that now.
I don't know if there's something wrong with me. It feels like everyone had a meeting without me on how love should feel like.
I'm 23 years old. I've had multiple romantic relationships, hookups, flings, all that, but I've never been in love with someone and I don't think I even have access to that feeling.
When I first started dating in my teens, I saw it as a "next stage" of friendship. "I appreciate this person so much that I'm going to do all these things that are reserved for a special someone with them". I never felt anything more than fleeting crushes on people that I maybe found a little bit more attractive or smart than the average person, and they went away as soon as the came. When people pursued me, I appreciated the attention, but it wasn't enough to make me interested. To this day, it's not difficult for me to feel attracted to someone, but I can never make the feeling last.
I have deep friendships that have taken years to form with people that I know I love and admire deeply. I love my line of work. I love the music I listen to, the books that I read, my family, my cat. I know love and I think I hold a lot of it, but I can never turn it into romance.
Not knowing how it's gonna end for me, at first I was preoccupied with the fact I was going to die while not having loved anyone, but I don't really care much for that now.
I don't know if there's something wrong with me. It feels like everyone had a meeting without me on how love should feel like.
