Coconteppi
It was a cool lil place. Just missing something :)
- Mar 14, 2024
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I think it sucks a bit that I can't talk to the people who would be affected most by my choice to CTB. Even if they were open to the idea of it, I think it'd only make the survivors guilt worse for them.
Even when I try to think of how I could be sure they can handle the conversation. It doesn't stop that conversation from becoming a sign that they could've used to inhibit my CTB. For example, the question, "Do you consider this a call for help?" Could even cause them to think they should've considered it a call for help after I CTB.
Idk just venting really. But it does kinda suck that I can't guarantee that a conversation regarding my desire to CTB won't cause them more pain in the end. And is more likely to have this impact regardless of how much detail I go into surrounding my reasoning.
It just feels like it'd make things worse for them yk. :/
Even when I try to think of how I could be sure they can handle the conversation. It doesn't stop that conversation from becoming a sign that they could've used to inhibit my CTB. For example, the question, "Do you consider this a call for help?" Could even cause them to think they should've considered it a call for help after I CTB.
Idk just venting really. But it does kinda suck that I can't guarantee that a conversation regarding my desire to CTB won't cause them more pain in the end. And is more likely to have this impact regardless of how much detail I go into surrounding my reasoning.
It just feels like it'd make things worse for them yk. :/
