Discussion Suicidal scale

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

Hello!
So I discovered this scale in the internet and I found it very useful.
Where would you consider yourself to be?
Ignore the medical help or it's not safe to be alone stuff as this is a CTB forum but thought it may help people talk about where they feel on the scale.

I would say my baseline is 8 even though I have written my notes. I flicker between a 8 and a 9 and then I go into a numbness and then it's 10.

I hope the image is clear!

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I was at 10. I live all alone. Instead of medical attention it was divine intervention.. Stupid failures

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I feel even medical attention wont even save me. I'll just die

 

[favourite]

Wonder how 1 feels.

 

[Walilamdzi]

Yes maybe 8 for me too.

 

[VabeniPokojneTmy]

I have constant shifts between 3-4 and 7. There is no way how to find out what it will be next day.

 

[favourite]

I have constant shifts between 3-4 and 7. There is no way how to find out what it will be next day.

Same here. The only certain thing is that one day it will be 10.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

I'm constantly between 8 and 10. But the things is, not even medical help can get me out of this state I'm in. One day I'll be at 10, luckily won't be saved before I'm gone or so screwed up there's no saving me. I'm heading to suicide and it is what it is.

 

[casctb]

I usually go from 5 to 6 in my day to day but when shit hits the fan, I get to 8.

 

[painoflife]

9 most of the time, 8 on a good day

 

[TAW122]

At my worst, I have been at 8-9 and could easily be at 10. (But of course, I would never "open up" IRL about it - well because I don't want to be saved or have my attempt jeopardized and lose my method.) Normally, I'd say, I'm around upper 4 (4.8) to about 6 on a fairly regular day. Life just sucks and it's hard to maintain appearance almost 24/7.

 

[itsamadworld]

Most days I'm a seven. But I fluctuate between a 7 to 9.

 

[WinterFaust]

Usually at an 8 or 9. 7 is a good day for me. I used to have good days but it's been a long time. Seems like that was someone else's life.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Hello!
So I discovered this scale in the internet and I found it very useful.
Where would you consider yourself to be?
Ignore the medical help or it's not safe to be alone stuff as this is a CTB forum but thought it may help people talk about where they feel on the scale.

I would say my baseline is 8 even though I have written my notes. I flicker between a 8 and a 9 and then I go into a numbness and then it's 10.

I hope the image is clear!
View attachment 37743

my baseline is 8. I have done 9 in the past

 

[Lucifer'sRight]

10 on a good day 10 on a bad day. 11 on sundays.

 

[SSlostallhope]

9 every day.

Haven't told anyone that I feel like that serious about it. My friends and family know I have severe depression and suicidal ideation though.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Right now between 7 and 8. That seems to be my baseline. Yesterday I was at a 9.

 

[readytogo982]

I'd say a 9 or 10. Pretty depressing reading that because I was at a 4 this time last year.

 

[Saddaisy]

9 or 10 minus the wanting help part. I plan to make this work. Got one note done... probably gonna edit it Monday when I can use my computer and not just my phone. Gotta write 3-4 more.

this time last year I was a 4.... but cheating douche made me realize life's not worth it. So it's kinda weird to think in a week I'll be prepping for my exit. I'll probably be taking my dog out to potty and kissing her and telling her how she was the best dog I could have ever wanted.

 

[Eurus]

6,mostly because I'm waiting

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I feel like I am at a 5 on very good days, but those only occur once in a while. On normal days, I'm at a 6 and on very bad days, I am at a 7 (which happens slightly more often than the good days). Only a couple of times in my life have I ever gotten to an 8 or 9, but it probably won't be long before 7 becomes normal and the bad days bring me into the higher numbers more frequently. I remember a time in my life when I was a teenager and in my early twenties where 3 was typical, very good days were a 1 or 2, and the horrible days were a 4. I miss those days, but I know that I can never get those back.

For me, the constant struggle between my desire to live and death has been like a game of Tetris. Early on, the pieces would stack up a little bit at times, but then I would be able to clear a few lines and feel sane again for a little while. Unfortunately, the speed at which these things come at me is increasing and will continue to do so. Someday I will get to the point where the pieces are stacked all the way to the top (I will be at a 10) and then it's game over. Towards the bottom, every mistake I've ever made and every bad thing that has ever happened to me is like a dark gap where the pieces failed to fit together, so those lines can never be cleared, no matter how hard I try. It is because of those gaps, that preventing new ones from occurring is much harder than it used to be. The increasing speed makes it worse, since I move closer to death the longer I live. When it gets too fast and there are too many gaps, I will have no choice but to give up because continuing to make progress in the game of life will be impossible.

 

[ReallySillyOtter]

Does it go to 11? Because there have been some days...

 

[I screwed up]

6 on a good day but mostly fluctuating between low 7 to mid 8 .... But I know soon its gonna be 9

 

[TrailerTrash]

8 is a good day - sit at 9 most all the time, especially since I have completed my ReBreather .... not long now .... 10 here I come soon

 

[Kamiotesoro]

Used to be about 6, now fluctuating like crazy between 8 and nine with a 7 on a good day)

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

I'm a 9 right now. Will be a 10 by the end of the week. Funnily enough, I was actually both a 1 and a 9 a couple weeks ago. My plan had finally come together, and I was so happy. Being depressed and then all of a sudden happy is a classic trait of someone who is going to ctb.

 

[Bct]

Between 8 and 9, but I never plan to say goodbye to people. Only announce it through delayed post that I already passed away.

 

[DeathNoot]

Between 6 and 8 probably... have been 9 a few times tho

 

[ImSorryEmma]

I would say I am about an 8 but getting close to 9 and eventually 10

 

[Ardesevent]

I think I'm about 9 on a average day. I keep thinking about when I can get away from my family to attempt partial for the week. I would put myself at a 10, but I can't die, unfortunately.