Venting suicidal because of perpetual singlehood

[morose soul]

Hi everyone. I just wanted to vent about how the fact that I have never had a girlfriend makes me want to take my own life because I can't help the fact that I am frustrated and depressed because of an unmet need for romantic companionship. I am so tired of being romantically lonely, undesirable and unwanted. I have tried everything to get a girlfriend but still nothing. I even prayed about it to the point where this unanswered prayer made me give up on prayer altogether. It is so hard to watch my partnered peers meanwhile I am always perpetually single. A lot of people have taken their own lives because of perpetual singlehood so at least I won't be the first.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are going through this, I get that loneliness can be painful. Of course I will never understand as I have no interest in relationships at all, I cannot stand people. People can be very disappointing and can let you down. That is why I see it as better to stay away. I hope you find someone, as of course you deserve to be in a relationship if that is what you want, but if you choose to leave this world then I wish you peace.

 

[morose soul]

I'm sorry you are going through this, I get that loneliness can be painful. Of course I will never understand as I have no interest in relationships at all, I cannot stand people. People can be very disappointing and can let you down. That is why I see it as better to stay away. I hope you find someone, as of course you deserve to be in a relationship if that is what you want, but if you choose to leave this world then I wish you peace.

Thank you for the empathy and understanding. I appreciate it. Truth is, I have lost hope that I will ever find a girlfriend so that's why suicide is now an option to me. What's the point of living if you are going to be just alone? I am only human so of course perpetual singlehood would make me feel suicidal. I just wish I was like other human beings who are lucky in love.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Welcome to the club

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

It is so hard to watch my partnered peers meanwhile I am always perpetually single. A lot of people have taken their own lives because of perpetual singlehood so at least I won't be the first.

In centuries past, communities referred to "heart sickness." And in the early 21st century, medical scientists finally confirmed strong relationships between depression and other emotional suffering and heart pathology (easy to Google...). It says a lot about our cultures that it's become fashionable to belittle and alienate people for being honest about this kind of suffering. Very sorry you're hurting.

 

[Midgardsorm]

My thoughts exactly.

In our primal times, men like me incapable of having a partner should be dead anyway. I'm just following the script.

 

[morose soul]

In centuries past, communities referred to "heart sickness." And in the early 21st century, medical scientists finally confirmed strong relationships between depression and other emotional suffering and heart pathology (easy to Google...). It says a lot about our culture's that it's become fashionable to belittle and alienate people for being honest about this kind of suffering. Very sorry you're hurting.

Thank you for the support. Our culture tends to invalidate those who take their own lives by saying it's not a "big deal" but romantic companionship is very much a big deal to all of us since it's a natural human need. People who have no struggles with easily finding romantic love will never understand how the lack of it can drive a person to suicide.

My thoughts exactly.

In our primal times, men like me incapable of having a partner should be dead anyway. I'm just following the script.

Relatable, bro. Taking my own life would set me free and spare me from experiencing further romantic loneliness.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

since it's a natural human need.

I'm glad you used the word "need." I've been reading more professional psychology papers that recognize companionship as a "basic human need." Yet still, as you know, the common popular sentiment is that it's a "need" only when the person being considered is someone generally likable. If you're not likable, your needs--from housing to legal access to health care to basic human companionship--are dismissed as your wrongly perceived entitlements. :/

 

[Snake of Eden]

I'm glad you used the word "need." I've been reading more professional psychology papers that recognize companionship as a "basic human need." Yet still, as you know, the common popular sentiment is that it's a "need" only when the person being considered is someone generally likable. If you're not likable, your needs--from housing to legal access to health care to basic human companionship--are dismissed as your wrongly perceived entitlements. :/

So true. I noticed the same pattern in youtube comment section about the killer incel case in Toronto. People were quick to judge that those incels are too entitled to want a relationship and nobody owes it to them

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm in the exact same boat as you and will also cite this reason as my primary cause for CTB. The people who are either already in relationships or don't care about them can never fully understand how it stings to not be able to get one no matter how hard we try. I hope things turn out better for you than they will for me…..

 

[Hurt]

Same here but it doesn't matter to me anymore. I learnt to live like this.

 

[tiredplant777]

Thanks for posting this. I'm so sorry you're experiencing this loneliness and isolation. As someone who has never been in a long term relationship but who has been in shorter ones, I have noticed that when I am with someone I feel so much better. Just getting hugs makes me feel so much better. The difference is so noticeable it's nearly a spiritual experience. People act like relationships aren't things we need, but I'm at the point where I know it's something I need. I need love. You need love. We all need love.

Last year I dated a guy for like 3 months who I met on tinder. He was super nice to me then kinda wasn't then ghosted me. I still think about him a lot. Getting ghosted hit me so hard lol.

 

[Lifessocruel]

I know what it's like to live all my life without a partner and it bloody hurts like hell, although i came close on Internet dating and met someone in a nightclub she turned out to be married but only told me afterwards. So another human betrayal. I felt almost suicidal after and this before my major health problems and clinical depression.
When i was younger I was just so reserved and far too shy, i just never really came out of my shell, i had massive confidence issues and a hearing disability.
My crazy upbringing disturbed me and I managed to survive with a partner for so long because i managed to beat the odds and start i business which i sometimes doesn't feel like work and is just about keeping me alive now. So its true if you leave things too late in life the psychological impact is so hard to overcome even though i gain alot of confidence doing my business it wasn't enough. I had a couple of chances but I just couldn't take them. Thinking about it now i should of seen a therapist at the time but i suppose i had too much pride in myself. Just maybe if I'd found the courage the major problems im now facing could have been averted. Im desperate for a time machine.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

she turned out to be married but only told me afterwards. So another human betrayal. I felt almost suicidal after

The scars of betrayal can never heal. I'd rather get stabbed with a knife than suffer yet another human betrayal. Very sorry for your pain.