Venting Suicidal again, house almost broken in to...

[Daxter777]

So i started going to my psychiatrist for about half a year now and the meds she put me on has helped a fuck ton with my anxiety, panic attacks and depression, my anxiety and panic attacks subsided to almost 0%

But yestarday i was at home just chilling and i hear a noise and the back gate open and i thought my roomate came home and then i see my dog is scared so i got up to check whats up and it was 2 random dudes trying to break in to my house, i yelled at them and they bolted.

The problem now is im having a constant unending panac attack, i feel like death and my ideations are back full swing. And all i can think of is just ending it. Im surprised that that all my progress feels like it just went down the drain. It honestly feels like im just one bad situation away from ending it...

 

[Forever Sleep]

This sounds terrifying. I'm so sorry. I think that sight would make anyone panic. Not that it would eliminate the fear but, could you do anything to beef up the security where you live? Are your neighbours friendly? Have you told them?

 

[Daxter777]

This sounds terrifying. I'm so sorry. I think that sight would make anyone panic. Not that it would eliminate the fear but, could you do anything to beef up the security where you live? Are your neighbours friendly? Have you told them?

Thanks for the reply. I did warn my neighbors and apparently another house 3 houses down from me was hit 10 days ago so the area is being targeted.

A store a block from me was also hit.
I went out and baught loads of locks and chains. I ended up chaining the back gate with 2 chains with locks and also put a lock on the gate it self. I also reinstalled new locks on the front gate and on the side door. Im trying to kake it very inconvenient just in case.

Honestly experiencing it is very shocking in the moment but you end up not feeling safe in your own home which is just horrible. Im hoping with time il gain confidence back but at the moment im dealing with panic attacks and paranoia.