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LostHighway

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May 5, 2025
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I'd really appreciate your advice!

I'm going to San Francisco in a couple weeks to go on a reconnaissance mission. Haven't a clue how to do it. Here are my ideas. I'm learning all the lingo now. For example, Gray Stuff (aka Grey Death) is the best for CTB. I'm learning about how much is needed. I'm getting test strips for Fentanyl and Xylazine. I don't want Xylazine A lot of the Fentanyl has a lot of other stuff with it. I'm really interested in the patches. Enough patches put on the body at one time - and even chewing the patches - can be lethal. I'm going to get a burner phone to have on hand so if I make contact with a dealer, I can communicate with him or her and trash my phone before I CTB. I don't want anyone getting into trouble and going to jail. I'm older and will look like some suburban grandma. So, maybe I'll dress down. I'll carry pepper spray too. And if I carry money, I'll put it in my shoes or in a well concealed money belt. I doubt I'll score on my first outing. I want to establish rapport with my source. Do you have any pointers?
 
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BradGuy123

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This is very difficult. I've wondered the same thing. I live near a big city. If I wanted something like this I would have no idea where to go. If I found the right neighborhood I wouldn't know who to approach or what to say. I'll caution you about something. In my state if you have an illegal substance charging you with with "possession with intent to distribute" (a felony) is based on quantity you have - not intention. So if you buy too much and get caught you could go to prison for a very long time.
 
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LostHighway

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This is very difficult. I've wondered the same thing. I live near a big city. If I wanted something like this I would have no idea where to go. If I found the right neighborhood I wouldn't know who to approach or what to say. I'll caution you about something. In my state if you have an illegal substance charging you with with "possession with intent to distribute" (a felony) is based on quantity you have - not intention. So if you buy too much and get caught you could go to prison for a very long time.
WOW!!! Thank you SO much for telling me this. So important to know. That just scared the daylights out of me. I'm so glad you found my post and responded. So, if I bought a box of the patches and got busted, I could go to jail.
 
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KatalinaKrimson

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Jun 24, 2026
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I'm also in a similar situation. I'm in a stereotypically rough city. Thankfully I'm a somewhat clocky trans girl who sometimes gets mistaken for being homeless. So not exactly suburban grandpa.

I'm not a stranger to my city, but i am a stranger to buying drugs on the street.

And I'm particularly scared of being hate crimed and shit, after a terrible situation that happened earlier this year. Honestly, if it weren't for the fear left over from that incident, I'd just go to the gnarliest neighborhood i could find and ask random guys who looked like they would know.
 
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LostHighway

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I'm also in a similar situation. I'm in a stereotypically rough city. Thankfully I'm a somewhat clocky trans girl who sometimes gets mistaken for being homeless. So not exactly suburban grandpa.

I'm not a stranger to my city, but i am a stranger to buying drugs on the street.

And I'm particularly scared of being hate crimed and shit, after a terrible situation that happened earlier this year. Honestly, if it weren't for the fear left over from that incident, I'd just go to the gnarliest neighborhood i could find and ask random guys who looked like they would know.
That totally sucks that you had a bad hate crime experience. The hatred towards trans people in the US is getting much worse. I can't imagine what that must be like. Yeah, I thought of going down a more deserted street and seeing who seemed approachable. I could drive my ratty old car and dress down. Maybe I can find a grizzly looking older woman who could give me some pointers. And pray she doesn't steal my car and rob me blind.
 
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Lost in a Dream

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Feb 22, 2020
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Sucks that getting fentanyl is so difficult and dangerous because I'm looking into how to get it myself if possible. It's very important that I come up with some kind of peaceful way out because I have a friend who is in very serious pain all the time and they can't get out of bed so if I help them exit I have to leave this world with them which is dangerous enough as it is, but to also try to buy a street drug to do it with would add a whole new layer of risk to it. I'm at a loss here because I don't know what to do.
 
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Sucks that getting fentanyl is so difficult and dangerous because I'm looking into how to get it myself if possible. It's very important that I come up with some kind of peaceful way out because I have a friend who is in very serious pain all the time and they can't get out of bed so if I help them exit I have to leave this world with them which is dangerous enough as it is, but to also try to buy a street drug to do it with would add a whole new layer of risk to it. I'm at a loss here because I don't know what to do.
Dark web is the best option in terms of personal safety and legit drugs. But I'm not very good at using it lol
 
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Lost in a Dream

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Feb 22, 2020
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Dark web is the best option in terms of personal safety and legit drugs. But I'm not very good at using it lol

I could try the dark web and have the fent shipped to a PO box or something, just to make sure I can get it without getting into too much trouble. I live with my dad and don't want to have him discover that I ordered a lethal drug like that because I can't be bothered to explain to him what it's for and would likely be put in the hospital ASAP if he found out. Sucks that I have no where better to live than this.
 
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KatalinaKrimson

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Jun 24, 2026
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Sucks that getting fentanyl is so difficult and dangerous because I'm looking into how to get it myself if possible. It's very important that I come up with some kind of peaceful way out because I have a friend who is in very serious pain all the time and they can't get out of bed so if I help them exit I have to leave this world with them which is dangerous enough as it is, but to also try to buy a street drug to do it with would add a whole new layer of risk to it. I'm at a loss here because I don't know what to do.
As somebody who's lived in a stereotypically "hood" city my whole life, I'm telling you, the "dangerous" aspect of living in the hood is hugely overstated by people who aren't from there and use it as a boogieman.

Before weed was legal, I used to just go up to completely random people who looked like they might have some, and low and behold, they did.

Especially if you are a man, just go up to whoever looks like they might have connections, and the worst thing you're gonna get is a "the fuck are you talking about?" type response. Nobody is going to just randomly attack you for walking around. Especially if you don't have anything valuable on you. If you are a woman, assuming you aren't in a completely secluded place, the worst you're going to get is some crass sexual harassment. Honestly, even as a trans woman who is like... mostly passy, but still a little bit clocky, I in no way expect to be just physically attacked at random outside in broad daylight, regardless of whether they know I'm trans. I just can't handle the risk of aggressive transphobic harassment and the long-lasting dysphoria that comes from it.

Rich folks buy drugs all the time. So a rich or middle class person wondering around the hood looking for a plug is not unheard of.

The biggest problem is the thought that YOU could be an undercover cop or some trouble maker who isn't truly a fiend looking for a fix.


I'm also, AND PLEASE CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG, not really worried about cops at all. Cops looking through my stuff is not an every day occurrence, and I don't plan on keeping the pills on my person or in my car when/if I finally obtain them. I'm also not worried about the odds of the random person who I approach actually being an undercover cop (if they were actively advertising themselves on the internet, or posted up at a known drug market, then that would be a different story). Besides, California has diversion programs for suicidal people if they're caught in possession of drugs they attempt to kill themselves with. As well as diversion programs for people caught with pills in general, who are addicts, and don't have a prior criminal record, which I luckily don't have.
 
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