HenryHenriksen_6E
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- Oct 19, 2024
- 15
So, before coming on here for real, I found the suicide resources where there was a thread on how to hang yourself properly. Here I found advice on partial hanging, along with how to make yourself pass out with your fingers. Fast forwards a month or two, I had a shitty enough day to try it, and it felt amazing. Was on the verge of blacking out, but I was too afraid to go any further. Then I did it again later. Fast forwards a couple more months, and I find myself practicing for the partial hanging, which is the first time in a while where I tried to pass out with my fingers. Guess what? It didn't work. And trust me, I tried a lot of things, put pressure on alot of different places, tilted my head in different orientations, read the exact same thread. I tried on different days, hell I even tried doing it with a belt, with or without it attached to anything. (Realized the belt might not work at all. Luckily I have decent enough rope to my avail, but haven't tried that.)
What worries me is that I am incapable of cutting bloodflow to my brain anymore, meaning my only way of leaving this dumbass rock is gone. Yes, there still are ways for me, but none appeal to me like hanging. SN, even if it was available, makes me uncomfortable in case I regret it midway through, and jumping into traffic or from a high place seems way too scary. Meanwhile, hanging feels so much nicer, especially if I could replicate that euphoric feeling from passing out. It also feels more comforting to have something around my neck.
Back to the topic, I really don't know how I suddenly am incapable of making myself black out. Has anyone else struggled with this, or am I doing some sort of dumb beginner-level mistake?
What worries me is that I am incapable of cutting bloodflow to my brain anymore, meaning my only way of leaving this dumbass rock is gone. Yes, there still are ways for me, but none appeal to me like hanging. SN, even if it was available, makes me uncomfortable in case I regret it midway through, and jumping into traffic or from a high place seems way too scary. Meanwhile, hanging feels so much nicer, especially if I could replicate that euphoric feeling from passing out. It also feels more comforting to have something around my neck.
Back to the topic, I really don't know how I suddenly am incapable of making myself black out. Has anyone else struggled with this, or am I doing some sort of dumb beginner-level mistake?
