Stupid thread of a idiot

[Frem]

Tbh idk what i even want to achieve with this thread. Im just a stupid, lonely and trans without any hopes for the future, nowadays i only talk with one person and honestly dont know why i havent tried to kill myself more. I just want to disapear from this planet and idk what else to say, its all just so pointles.
So are there people here in a simillar situation to mine? What is your advise to someone who has been just slowly destroying their life with apathy? Should i end it all? Should i just rot more and delay the most likely future by not doing anything? Is there even a chace for me if taking care of my body alone is a thing that I have to focus on just to fail at it not to mention improving my life in any way?

 

[LadyPoulenc]

I'm in a VERY similar situation to you, like almost word-for-word. Presently, I'm trynna get my hands on some estradiol, so I guess that could be some advice, getting hrt if you haven't already. Folks like us, if we're gonna ctb, we should do it as our truest selves. What's the point of your memory living on if that memory is incorrect?

 

[Satori Komeiji]

I can relate to your post. I am very isolated and lonely as well. Honestly, most of what keeps me sane these days is a combination of escapism and hyperfixating on interests. So for me this can just mean playing games I enjoy or engaging in one of my few interests (mostly sysadmin and programming stuff for me). I prioritize these things over living a normal or healthy life because real life is too harsh for me most of the time... Also I don't think anyone on this forum will tell you that you should end it all.

 

[erik_signe]

Tbh idk what i even want to achieve with this thread. Im just a stupid, lonely and trans without any hopes for the future, nowadays i only talk with one person and honestly dont know why i havent tried to kill myself more. I just want to disapear from this planet and idk what else to say, its all just so pointles.
So are there people here in a simillar situation to mine? What is your advise to someone who has been just slowly destroying their life with apathy? Should i end it all? Should i just rot more and delay the most likely future by not doing anything? Is there even a chace for me if taking care of my body alone is a thing that I have to focus on just to fail at it not to mention improving my life in any way?

I am in a similar position as well. I am genderfluid but I haven't really told anyone... and well, I don't talk to anyone at all... I wish I had friends. I wish I wasn't so... me?

Right now, I am just taking my time to plan out and research my method to ensure full success. But dear, I believe it is not up to us to decide what you should do with your life. It is your choice in the very end.

However, whatever you may choose to do, I hope it brings you peace of mind and strength to deal with whatever may come.

I'm here if you'd like a friend or someone to chat with.