struggling to message little bro again venting/help

[Life_and_Death]

a bit ago, im not exactly sure how long now. maybe a week. 2 might be pushing it...... i havent responded. ive seen his messages, ive read them but left them unread (didnt actually enter the chat).

i dont blame him. ive never blamed him. its not his fault he was born and my "parents" suck. but that doesnt change how disheartening it can be at times..... i explained the spoon theory, so its "fine" if i drop off the map for a bit. (ive been busy helping my friend medically and busy with xmas. although im not sure i can say that... that would open up a whole can of worms. what did you do for xmas. oh ya know, went home for xmas. which he probably doesnt even know about. hes never met his mothers father. but hes met AND HANGS OUT WITH THE FUCKING CONVICTED CHILD M******** that might have me......)



there is soooo much about this thats upsetting to me......i just fucking cant........and i saw a "family" picture on his fb and.........i just couldnt anymore.............

i dont blame you.....but that doesnt take the hurt i feel with you away.........

 

[timf]

Many see setting boundaries as managing the limits of others intrusion into your realm. However, it can also be useful to set internal boundaries such that consideration of painful events or what others may or may not do doesn't drive us crazy. I don't know if this is what you are dealing with but it can be helpful.

"Hell Is Other People" - Sartre