Venting Struggling to get SN

[why am i alive?]

I want to buy SN as a sort of emergency plan. If I don't find another way of committing and worse comes to worse I want to be prepared.
I am just really struggling to get my hands on it. I don't trust most sites or am scared of cops finding out. It's just shitty because I badly need it soon and all I do is go over the tutorial over and over too scared to act.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just find it so incredibly horrible and cruel how people have to struggle so much to plan their deaths, I really wish there's the option to just easily die in an painless, reliable way, it truly would be such a relief for me. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

 

[Coconut blue]

i thought sn is a common food additive that you get at cheap prices(?) idk abt the laws and situation in your country tho