Strange rituals suicide ideation

[CatLove56]

Do any of you have your planned way out and sort of use it as a comfort? Like in my case it's rope and of course I understand some people use it for *ahem* other purposes but that's not what I do with it. Lately when I've been so super stressed out I wrap it around my neck and just pull as hard as I can so I can feel closer to death and peace. Knowing I have some secure way out of this shithole calms me down.

Big ass monumental failure so I gotta know if someone else does this like even holding your pills close at night or polishing your gun more often than you should.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I don't have my peaceful pill with me yet. But I often go over my plan in my head. Like, I imagine my last moments, everything leading up to that, etc. Helps me fall asleep and if something bad happens during the day, it comforts me also.

 

[meltskelt]

I keep my SN close to me so I know that I have it at all times

 

[nixxeekes]

Do any of you have your planned way out and sort of use it as a comfort? Like in my case it's rope and of course I understand some people use it for *ahem* other purposes but that's not what I do with it. Lately when I've been so super stressed out I wrap it around my neck and just pull as hard as I can so I can feel closer to death and peace. Knowing I have some secure way out of this shithole calms me down.

Big ass monumental failure so I gotta know if someone else does this like even holding your pills close at night or polishing your gun more often than you should.

yeah. its not necessarily the method ill use, but when im too desperate and im feeling manic i need pain i guess. to remind myself im still here. when im feeling so much n so intensely, i need to cut or punch or bite or stab myself just so i calm the fuck down. not always works, but it helps more than any other thing.

 

[CatLove56]

yeah. its not necessarily the method ill use, but when im too desperate and im feeling manic i need pain i guess. to remind myself im still here. when im feeling so much n so intensely, i need to cut or punch or bite or stab myself just so i calm the fuck down. not always works, but it helps more than any other thing.

Damn I'm sorry to hear that. In my case well it's just that rope might as well be someone hugging me and telling me it's going to be okay.