Story time

[Imamistakendumarsse]

Hey guys. Longtime lurker, first time poster. I made a mistake 4 years ago and now the time lost is killing me. I got into med school and cleared my first year but because of depression and anxiety i started having suicidal thoughts. This made me overly nihilistic and i semi dropped out of college to try other ventures which led nowhere. I'm from India so the stories you hear of only doctors and engineers coming out are pretty much true. We are not allowed per se to have passions or..... goodness gracious.... Follow our passions. My college will let me back to finish my degree, but what even is the point to life and living in such a manner. If the game isn't fun, wouldn't you want to quit playing. Isn't that the rational decision. I mean, just because we are animals and have survival instincts, should we keep playing, and just continue because of an absurd hope that things will work out. I get that once you quit this game, there is no chance of playing any other, but still isn't nothing better than pathetic continuation? I wasn't very prepared obviously when i tried the entrepreneurship journey and lost 4 years of my life. I've been suicidal for far too long and i've decided on partial. I've failed multiple times because of SI and now im getting kind of desperate.

 

[LMLN]

I am so sorry for your situation. I am an engineer, and have followed this career out of respect for my parents and financial need. Again, I am sorry for your circumstances. Cannot say much more, than I am sorry for your situation.

 

[Imamistakendumarsse]

I am so sorry for your situation. I am an engineer, and have followed this career out of respect for my parents and financial need. Again, I am sorry for your circumstances. Cannot say much more, than I am sorry for your situation.

Thanks buddy. Im stuck in between a rock and a hard place. People always say look at others who have it more difficult than you, but if all of life is random, then man couldn't i have been born in a better situation