Venting Stopped taking my antidepressants

[UninformedLover]

I stopped taking my antidepressants because I experienced another awful side effect and now I feel worse than ever. Messaged my psychiatrist's office but they
haven't gotten back to me yet like they said they would. Tbh I don't even care if they do.

My depression and anxiety are at an all time high right now. It feels like my brain is being suffocated. And I can feel my sadness in my throat If that even makes sense. When I took them I felt so numb and could barely feel anything but now it's like my emotions have come back in full force. Which I guess it partially a good thing because I cried for the first time since April. But I just feel so awful.

I guess this is also good because it does give me more motivation to hurry up and kill myself. It just sucks because there's so many things I'll never experience but I probably wasn't going to experience it regardless (like get a girlfriend or get married or see movies of my favorite Marvel characters.)

Besides, I don't think there was a point of taking antidepressants anyway when my life circumstances are a large part of why I'm so depressed. I'm poor, I live in a shitty neighborhood, my parents are awful, lots of bad luck and the effects of childhood trauma is ruining my life rn....etc etc...True Itook them and felt so numb that I would just spend most days feeling empty and emotionless and not suicidal but my life still sucked and my issues were still there.

I try and I try and I try but its always some bullshit. I'm all tried out. I don't know what else to do. I really don't.

 

[CloudChaser]

Sorry for your bad situation.
Quit your AD is not a good idea. I did it once and it was hell.
Your serotonine level gets out of balance if you don't reduce it over a period of time.
The level of serotonine effect your dopamine and you be really messed up for a while.
Trust me, i know. Best thing to do is get back to the actual dose and take time to reduce it.
Anyway, i hope you will get the strength to regain al little bit of trust in yourself.

Take care!

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Quitting any medication cold turkey can cause serious side effects. You need to discuss that shit with a medical professional first just for safety reasons.

 

[misanthropemurder]

I hate having to deal with psychiatrists, they always feel disingenuous. Like I get it, you deal with tons of patients, but we are all individuals, and deserve to be treated with care. I also stopped taking my anti depressants, it's been a couple weeks at this point. You got this.

 

[theboy]

You don't have to stop medications immediately. You have to follow a process