liz!!!!!
liz <3
- Feb 8, 2023
- 33
you deserve so much better than me. there are many reasons. many reasons that i won't get in to because if i told you everything you would surely leave- but isn't that what i want? i want you to leave. i wish i could shoo you like an animal but you're so much smarter- so much more stubborn. a simple 'go' won't do it. so i tell you everything. everything but i guess it still holds the tinge of not wanting you to know because i want you to care i think i'm manipulating you. if i wanted you gone i would tell you everything at face value but. that's the funny part. you're such a good person, i think you'd take the information and it wouldn't change a thing. please. please get away from me please stop i hate you. will that do it? should i lie? will that make you run? i hate you. i hate you so much that when you cross my mind i forget to breathe. i wish we never met. i really do. what would i be doing right now if i never met you? i can't stand you. the mere thought of you makes me sick i hate you. hate you. hate you. Hate you. i hate you so much wish i could hug you. i wish i could hold you while i cry i wish i didn't have to cry i hate crying i hate you why do you love me please stop. stop. stop stop loving me please stop please make this easy i can't do this anymore but i don't want to hurt you you'll move on you'll move on and probably forget me will you forget me? or will i be the person you think about occasionally please forget me. you have so much potential. all you need to do is apply yourself i can't even do that. please. please be better than me. please tell me you can move on please accept that eventually i'll be gone im tired of doing it slowly i need to go now please. stop.
