You're an amazing person. For how long you've made it, for the difference you've made in so many people's lives (and Sweet Pea's), whether you know it or not. It's okay not to be okay. You've done so much, give yourself credit for making such a journey into the unknown. I really enjoy reading your posts even if I might not post too often in reply (or at all, I'm not sure if I have, my apologies). I wish I could have someone like you in my life, but I'm too scared to even start a chat haha if Sweet Pea is traumatized, I think it's okay to admit the journey was hard on you as well, but you both made it to the end. See how it goes. You've overcome a lot just getting there so you're capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for. Even if it doesn't go well it doesn't necessarily reflect on you. There are so many factors to everything and you got that job so you've already got the first step under your belt, you overcame that and they saw potential in you. I'm not sure who you can reach out to, but there might be sources you can reach out to for help still. Maybe just give yourself some deserved respite now that you've made the journey. You deserve rest. And that might be a good place to start, try to get enough before tomorrow if at all possible. If it hasn't happened yet try not to dwell on the what-ifs (easier said than done though haha). I'm wishing you the best in whatever happens, and thank you for being a part of this community.
