If you were living a healthy lifestyle pre-CTB decision. Do you still eat healthy, exercise and take vitamins post-CTB decision? If so, why? What would be the point?
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rosie93
Student
- Aug 28, 2021
- 152
Not anymore. No point.
BeansOfRequirement
Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,789
I eat for short-term goals (animal fat, protein, a ton of milk, lots of green vegetables, some fiber, as low carb as possible), that'll increase my "risk" of death long-term. I smoke on and off but don't drink. Take vitamins very rarely, think I get enough from diet. I don't really do cardio but I lift (not a lot, either). I'd say I'm basically on par with your average person health wise (mental stuff aside).
I used to have a healthy lifestyle but since I started to feel suicidal I'm like WHY? If I'm going to ctb why I'm eating healthy and taking care of my body if I want to end it all.
Adamsnolife
Specialist
- May 5, 2020
- 395
stygal
meow
- Oct 29, 2020
- 1,731
Partly yes, partly no. Can't seem to let vanity go completely maybe even for the sake of being "no disgusting corpse" but I do have my vices (smoking, prescription meds, sweets) and I'm not too concerned about getting cancer or other stuff.
But no exercising tho ... tried it for a month...way too much and no real reason to be muscular.
But no exercising tho ... tried it for a month...way too much and no real reason to be muscular.
ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,561
Nah, ive put on a few kgs because ive pretty much just been eating junk food for the past few months since ive lost all hope. I think im gonna have to cut back a bit and do at least a bit of exercise though, i dont want to end up getting fat due to the fact im not ctbing until my dog dies (could still be 2-3 years away) and I don't want the rope to break on me (im planning on doing full suspension), now whether I follow up and actually do either of those things is another story, im the king of procrastination and feel like absolute garbage 24/7 
stygal
meow
- Oct 29, 2020
- 1,731
Feel you, always have had my struggle with food (in either direction) and it's fueled by feeling totally useless and like a piece of shit and also because food gives me at least something to look forward too.Nah, ive put on a few kgs because ive pretty much just been eating junk food for the past few months since ive lost all hope. I think im gonna have to cut back a bit and do at least a bit of exercise though, i dont want to end up getting fat due to the fact im not ctbing until my dog dies (could still be 2-3 years away) and I don't want the rope to break on me (im planning on doing full suspension), now whether I follow up and actually do either of those things is another story, im the king of procrastination and feel like absolute garbage 24/7
Hopefully you get to reach your goal
Chiisai
To infinity and beyond!
- Sep 1, 2021
- 754
I did until I realized that for me, no point already. I even gone back to my vices such as smoking which I quit a decade ago even though I grew a distaste of it already just so I could CTB quicker.
flagmaster
Member
- Oct 19, 2020
- 53
I go to the gym occasionally to wear myself out physically and basically beat myself up. It gets me out of my headspace for a bit and provides a healthy distraction. Whilst I'm here, alive, I make an effort. I effectively do everything they tell you that might help.
I'd like to exhaust all options before I'm finally content in ctb. I know that I will only need one attempt when I'm ready because I will have totally accepted my decision. I don't know when that'll be but the day will come. And I will be free.
I'd like to exhaust all options before I'm finally content in ctb. I know that I will only need one attempt when I'm ready because I will have totally accepted my decision. I don't know when that'll be but the day will come. And I will be free.
ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,561
Thank you!Feel you, always have had my struggle with food (in either direction) and it's fueled by feeling totally useless and like a piece of shit and also because food gives me at least something to look forward too.
Hopefully you get to reach your goal
Un-
I'm a failure. An absolute waste. A LOSEr.
- Apr 6, 2021
- 652
I haven't exercised since 2018. I'm quite a skinny person because I have a fear of gaining weight. I starve myself. I don't see how being healthy would help me die.
I try to stay semi healthy as I still have no choice but to participate in day to day activities. But nowhere close to what I used to do.
When I first became suicidal that actually made me start exercising and watching what I ate. I never went outside back then except to go to school and my lunches used to be bags of chips. So I would stay home and do yoga and pilates for hours, and eat fruits to curb the hunger I felt back then. Recently I've been doing my best to watch what I eat even more because I exercise much less (no time)
I think there are people who really benefit from starting to exercise and eat healthy, especially given the fact that most people stop doing those things when they get depressed, and others have never done them consistently before. But ultimately i think it's clear that severe mental illness, particularly the kinds that make you suicidal, don't get cured by healthy lifestyles, and all they really do is help reduce symptoms such as social ostracization, fatigue, and irregular sleep.
I think there are people who really benefit from starting to exercise and eat healthy, especially given the fact that most people stop doing those things when they get depressed, and others have never done them consistently before. But ultimately i think it's clear that severe mental illness, particularly the kinds that make you suicidal, don't get cured by healthy lifestyles, and all they really do is help reduce symptoms such as social ostracization, fatigue, and irregular sleep.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 42,590
No, I do not want to prolong my lifespan. I do not have the energy to do much these days. In a way it is like I have already died. It takes me a long time to do simple tasks. I do go outside sometimes, and do a bit of walking as it can make me feel a bit better but that is it. Whenever I feel like eating, I usually eat unhealthy foods.
BeansOfRequirement
Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,789
Being ripped might help me with the following methods:
SN, increased metabolism.
Jumping, increased agility and movement.
Suicide by cop, increased threat.
Exsanguination, increased force.
Train, increased movement.
Dropping bar on head/throat, increased weight.
VSED, increased water consumption.
Gun, increased coolness (ripped while holding firearm).
SN, increased metabolism.
Jumping, increased agility and movement.
Suicide by cop, increased threat.
Exsanguination, increased force.
Train, increased movement.
Dropping bar on head/throat, increased weight.
VSED, increased water consumption.
Gun, increased coolness (ripped while holding firearm).
I've never been huge on ultra healthy living, though I did make some effort before "enlightenment" kicked in. Since then, I've stopped caring at all. I eat what I want and no longer take any medication aside from those related to pain control. Which means no more blood pressure, cholesterol, vitamin deficiency, or antidepressant medications. There's no sense in taking them when I have no desire to prolong life.
Since I'm apparently too cowardly to take my own life, having balked twice now, maybe nature will do it for me. Fail at life, and fail at death. You can't get worse than that.
Since I'm apparently too cowardly to take my own life, having balked twice now, maybe nature will do it for me. Fail at life, and fail at death. You can't get worse than that.
For you....maybe it is not meant to be. Maybe somewhere deep inside you there is hope. Just maybe?
Walkingcorpse123
My only friend, the end
- Jul 9, 2021
- 44
Since I decided to go down that path I started eating whatever I want and not exercising at all. I still sometimes brush my teeth not everyday tho. I thought about starting using drugs again, been clean for over 2 years...But decided not to because it is nice to not worry about money. I do not work at all just lay in my bed. Im still in good shape but wont be after couple months so hopefully I can end it soon.
WrongPlaceWrongTime
Better never to have been
- Jul 4, 2021
- 695
I don't exercise nearly as much as I used to, so I've gotten skinny. Other than that, I do bathe and brush my teeth regularly to try to avoid any painful health disorders like canker sores. I don't have any set diet for myself, but I do eat enough fruit/vegetables for the sake of not getting constipated.
rockstar
Member
- Aug 26, 2021
- 9
No, I have been eating pizza on a regular basis for the past 2 months or so. I have been out of work, all though i had plenty of opportunities to get a another one but I just don't see the point.
I barely/never leave my house. Haven't bathed or brushed my teeth in like 7-8 weeks. God I dont even know anymore. It's safe to say I have given up and see not point in returning.
Just trying to muster up some courage to take the SN that i had for like almost 2 months.
Loneliness can be a real bitch…
I barely/never leave my house. Haven't bathed or brushed my teeth in like 7-8 weeks. God I dont even know anymore. It's safe to say I have given up and see not point in returning.
Just trying to muster up some courage to take the SN that i had for like almost 2 months.
Loneliness can be a real bitch…
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PinkSakura
Rip Flower I'll never forget you </3 我想你花
- Feb 8, 2021
- 137
Yes, I still try to live as best as I can even though I'm on the edge of doing CTB, but this is how I normally live/eat so I'm not making any difference in my lifestyle lol
I would at least brush your teeth. Having rotten teeth will just compound your issues. Pain will eventually make you seek a dentist.
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rockstar
Member
- Aug 26, 2021
- 9
Im just trying to do whatever I can to cancel my si. I'm almost there. Hopefully before end of this month or in couple of days I can take my sn. Thanks for trying though.
Yes, I am exceptionally fit and healthy. Anaerobic and aerobic workouts six days a week. Complete abstention from drugs and alcohol, and my diet is optimized for health purposes. I don't care about flavor.
I bask in my own dreadful feelings on full blast without the distraction of infirmity.
I bask in my own dreadful feelings on full blast without the distraction of infirmity.
