sorrowful

sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
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Feels so so horrible. Withdrawing from drugs and they are not doing shit about it, just leaving me a shaky sweaty mess. All they do is sedate me if i break down. Worse condition than when I came in. Was not a ctb attempt just accidental overdose they looked at my history and decided to section me. Hardly getting answers from nurses. I do not have an appetite and haven't eaten for days, not drinking much because I do not want to have to use the bathroom as i'll have to keep the door open. I know that is meant to make sure you don't harm yourself it jjust feels uncomfortable to me for sexual trauma reasons. Not giving me my actual medication seroquel poor communication between everyone here. I can not see my sick grandmother and i am worried for her. K am so weak most of the time from the sedating and not eating i can not walk so i am stuck in bed. Do i have no say at all? I am in the Uk
 
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I'm so so sorry, doll. You do have a say, I've never been put in a hospital for mental health, but I have freiends who are in hospital. Do you have a support worker who you can talk to? Are you in a psych ward or normal hospital?
 
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sorrowful

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My exhaustion knows no end
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I'm so so sorry, doll. You do have a say, I've never been put in a hospital for mental health, but I have freiends who are in hospital. Do you have a support worker who you can talk to? Are you in a psych ward or normal hospital?
I have a support worker, normal hospital they mentioned moving me to a ward bht i think they are just keeping me here
 
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I have a support worker, normal hospital they mentioned moving me to a ward bht i think they are just keeping me here
Have you spoken to head nurse, or nurse in charge about how their treating you?
 
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That really sounds so horrible being trapped in there and suffering like that, those places sound like awful prisons to me. I hope you get out of there soon, best wishes.
 
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Feels so so horrible. Withdrawing from drugs and they are not doing shit about it, just leaving me a shaky sweaty mess. All they do is sedate me if i break down. Worse condition than when I came in. Was not a ctb attempt just accidental overdose they looked at my history and decided to section me. Hardly getting answers from nurses. I do not have an appetite and haven't eaten for days, not drinking much because I do not want to have to use the bathroom as i'll have to keep the door open. I know that is meant to make sure you don't harm yourself it jjust feels uncomfortable to me for sexual trauma reasons. Not giving me my actual medication seroquel poor communication between everyone here. I can not see my sick grandmother and i am worried for her. K am so weak most of the time from the sedating and not eating i can not walk so i am stuck in bed. Do i have no say at all? I am in the Uk
I'm so sorry to hear that... I had similar experiences when I was at a hospital. They just gave me loads of benzodiazepines and didn't give a single sh*t about me. Additionally the stuff was rude to me and all the time I felt like bursting into tears... Obviously you don't have to answer my question, sorry if it is too intimate but what kind of drugs are you withdrawing from? Currently I'm doing a cold turkey from codeine and morphine and it just feels... horrible. I'm barely 72 hours clean but I feel like dying. My muscles hurt, my legs want to run away from me, very bad diarrhea and strong stomach cramps, not to mention the severe pain of existence, worsenning depression and intense suicidal thoughts... My father who constantly mocks me because of my recent coming out (I'm gay) doesn't help at all too... I try to cope by listenning to sad music but it helps only a little bit. I have not eaten for a few days and I also try not to drink too much.
 
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This is so horrible being imprisoned in a hospital and the general conditions there also seem to horrible. I hope you'll be released asap. This is inhumane treatment there. *virtual HUG*
 
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My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
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Have you spoken to head nurse, or nurse in charge about how their treating you?
I have. They say it is best for me to be here despite not liking it, rather than home where I could "hurt myself." Get it's their job just feels like a whole joke.
 
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I have. They say it is best for me to be here despite not liking it, rather than home where I could "hurt myself." Get it's their job just feels like a whole joke.
I understand where they are coming from, I know it's not nice to be in hospital, but I do understand as no-one wants you to hurt yourself, do you know or what's going to happen?
 
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My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
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That really sounds so horrible being trapped in there and suffering like that, those places sound like awful prisons to me. I hope you get out of there soon, best wishes.
It feels like a prison definitely. Still not much about when I am getting out but tomorrow I can go on a walk.. How thrilling. If only we were not stuck in this pro life society, and treated like criminals.

Thank you for sending wishes.
I'm so sorry to hear that... I had similar experiences when I was at a hospital. They just gave me loads of benzodiazepines and didn't give a single sh*t about me. Additionally the stuff was rude to me and all the time I felt like bursting into tears... Obviously you don't have to answer my question, sorry if it is too intimate but what kind of drugs are you withdrawing from? Currently I'm doing a cold turkey from codeine and morphine and it just feels... horrible. I'm barely 72 hours clean but I feel like dying. My muscles hurt, my legs want to run away from me, very bad diarrhea and strong stomach cramps, not to mention the severe pain of existence, worsenning depression and intense suicidal thoughts... My father who constantly mocks me because of my recent coming out (I'm gay) doesn't help at all too... I try to cope by listenning to sad music but it helps only a little bit. I have not eaten for a few days and I also try not to drink too much.
So sorry you have had to deal with the same thing. I had been taking xanax, morphine and heroin. The big three.. In a cold sweat constantly and my body aches. Extremely emotional and agitated. I live with my grandparents who are both unwell, my grandma is in the same hospital as me just a few wards down and they do not trust me to not run away when visiting. As if I would run from seeing my poorly relative. Places like these are why people do not want to seek help, feels traumatising. I have cried many times here, unusual for me since crying is something I hardly do, may sound childish but all I want is to be at home with my family.
This is so horrible being imprisoned in a hospital and the general conditions there also seem to horrible. I hope you'll be released asap. This is inhumane treatment there. *virtual HUG*
Always heard from others how shocking the conditions can be, experiencing it is something else. Only way I am getting out is by showing them I am "well enough" so here I am eating the nasty hospital sandwiches lol. Sending back a virtual hug. ❤️
I understand where they are coming from, I know it's not nice to be in hospital, but I do understand as no-one wants you to hurt yourself, do you know or what's going to happen?
Yes, I know it's their job. Just feel like a prisoner here. I will hopefully be let out soon. Panic has settled down and no longer devising a master escape plan, just trying to get this whole thing over with.
 
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