HappilySoaring
Ascension Maintained
- Nov 9, 2018
- 17
This is me...has been for years now. Only obligations like school and work interrupt the monotony. I wake up and lie in bed all day until dinner, smoking weed and surfing the Internet. I've recalled times where I've just stared at the ceiling for hours, and forgot I was alive until my stomach growled. I used to really be into skin care and personal upkeep, now Idgaf anymore. It's been a long road leading up to this, but I now know that my time to exit is drawing near. I've never contemplated "suicide" (hate using that word) in my entire life up until a month ago but It actually is the only thing that lifts my spirits nowadays. Knowing that this cycle of gloom and doom doesn't have to last much longer. But what exactly am I waiting for? I feel as though I'm still clinging to something here...like friendships, potential romances, and false senses of hope that things will magically fall from the sky and solve all of my problems. That bag of money still hasn't fallen Where the hell is my N...I needed it like yesterday. Lol
So, out of curiosity I ask, for those of you that are still here with us...what's stoppping you from CTB?
So, out of curiosity I ask, for those of you that are still here with us...what's stoppping you from CTB?