Starvation as a suicide method

[November718]

Recently I was prescribed Zyban (Bupropion) for my depression and it completely kills my appetite. I'm already on my second day of not eating but I've decided this will be how I'm going to go. I fasted 2 weeks before without it and managed so I'm feeling really hopeful. Hopefully it'll work. My only disappointment is not doing something bigger like jumping off beachy head or getting hit by a train.

I definitely feel like I'm ready to go at this point and I just want it to be over.

 

[Mthom2]

Just keep in mind that it goes much faster if you go without water as well. Though that's definitely the hardest part. Food deprivation isn't really that bad as long as you go cold turkey, as eating a small amount makes the hunger worse.

I'm sorry life has been hard on you too.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

How long it takes?

 

[November718]

Just keep in mind that it goes much faster if you go without water as well. Though that's definitely the hardest part. Food deprivation isn't really that bad as long as you go cold turkey, as eating a small amount makes the hunger worse.

I'm sorry life has been hard on you too.

Thank you.

I wouldn't be able to go without water and there's still things I need to take care of beforehand.

How long it takes?

I'm unsure but expecting 4-6 weeks. It's a long method but means I don't have to pull the trigger so to speak.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's understandable just wanting everything to end. Enduring existence really can be so horrible. I wish you freedom from all suffering.

 

[PurpleMonkey]

Starvation is virtually impossible as a method. It's true that people with ED have eventually died from complications but that it over the course and months/years and was more related to deeply unpleasant matters like organ failure.

Dehydration is much more effective but even then, it would be difficult to overcome that inevitable, primal urge to sustain.

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

Currently on day 18 - it's utter hell. No eating is fine, but I'm so thirsty I could literally drink from the toilet today. No drinking is so painful, an utter misery.

 

[Aeathelina]

As someone who has tried before. It is not a way I would wish for anyone and honestly unless you have a severe case of ana combined with another underlying health issue then it is very hard to die from starvation

 

[Someone123]

There is so much pain from this method over such a long period of time that it's almost impossible to do. Also when dehydrated enough the mind can start malfunctioning so you may not even remember what yuo were trying to do. Some peopel do die of anorexia, this is more feasible, but it takes so long and causes so much pain compared to other options.

 

[Hollowillow]

Recently I was prescribed Zyban (Bupropion) for my depression and it completely kills my appetite. I'm already on my second day of not eating but I've decided this will be how I'm going to go. I fasted 2 weeks before without it and managed so I'm feeling really hopeful. Hopefully it'll work. My only disappointment is not doing something bigger like jumping off beachy head or getting hit by a train.

I definitely feel like I'm ready to go at this point and I just want it to be over.

Please don't... It:s too slow. Or don't drink either! You might die in 40 days if you don't drink... instead of never & turn in a bony psychotic skeletton.

Currently on day 18 - it's utter hell. No eating is fine, but I'm so thirsty I could literally drink from the toilet today. No drinking is so painful, an utter misery.

Oh god... Almost half way? How about trying partial hanging & sn. If you enjoy horrible deaths, mixing bleach & vinegar might be faster. I'm in agony since months from an accidental mix though... Unable to remove it...

 

[theboy]

Definitely not

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

Please don't... It:s too slow. Or don't drink either! You might die in 40 days if you don't drink... instead of never & turn in a bony psychotic skeletton.

Oh god... Almost half way? How about trying partial hanging & sn. If you enjoy horrible deaths, mixing bleach & vinegar might be faster. I'm in agony since months from an accidental mix though... Unable to remove it...

I don't even remember why I started now tbh. It's day 20 - 3 weeks tomorrow. I've lost an enormous amount of weight and wasn't heavy to begin with. It's surprising how resilient the body is but I'm now at the point where I'm struggling to stand etc. Its the amount of time it takes whilst feeling really really uncomfortable. Zero stars - would not recommend!!

 

[PurpleMonkey]

I don't even remember why I started now tbh. It's day 20 - 3 weeks tomorrow. I've lost an enormous amount of weight and wasn't heavy to begin with. It's surprising how resilient the body is but I'm now at the point where I'm struggling to stand etc. Its the amount of time it takes whilst feeling really really uncomfortable. Zero stars - would not recommend!!

None of my business but I am morbidly curious about why you chose this method.

Was your starting point "I wanna CTB" or was it instead "I have severe ED and simply don't mind if I CTB"? Because with the amount of agony you are putting yourself through, it doesn't seem as if cessation is your goal.

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

None of my business but I am morbidly curious about why you chose this method.

Was your starting point "I wanna CTB" or was it instead "I have severe ED and simply don't mind if I CTB"? Because with the amount of agony you are putting yourself through, it doesn't seem as if cessation is your goal.

It's fine, ill answer as best I can. It's not really my method, I have SN, I just think I deserve pain. It started as anxiety over an assessment. There's some things I've never spoken about which made me extremely anxious. Then it just carried on again and now, like you say - I just don't care. But equally, I don't recommend it.

 

[Hollowillow]

I don't even remember why I started now tbh. It's day 20 - 3 weeks tomorrow. I've lost an enormous amount of weight and wasn't heavy to begin with. It's surprising how resilient the body is but I'm now at the point where I'm struggling to stand etc. Its the amount of time it takes whilst feeling really really uncomfortable. Zero stars - would not recommend!!

Do you still pee from breathing humidity? Do you poop? Your own cannibalized flesh?

Such a sad way to go but I read it's common in some places... Many hugs if you wish...

 

[Shikamaru]

It won't work. You will most likely not be able to starve that long as most humans physically can't, or you will develop anorexia / another eating disorder, which as others have said before yes you can die from due to complications, but it's not fucking easy and everyone around you will notice. (Iv had anorexia and bulimia for 11 years so I'm sorry but I'm low key judging your post and it sounds immature) Bad plan IMO, it's not as easy as you think it is

 

[Hollowillow]

It's fine, ill answer as best I can. It's not really my method, I have SN, I just think I deserve pain. It started as anxiety over an assessment. There's some things I've never spoken about which made me extremely anxious. Then it just carried on again and now, like you say - I just don't care. But equally, I don't recommend it.

Why do you think you deserve pain? I only hate pedophiles... I think I read that unconditionnal forgiveness can fuck up someone. Because good people can feel guilty, like they created an injustice, and crave punishment to balance their emotional math and be able to let it go. If that's true, it's heart breaking... Because life is unfair all the time and people can do mistakes. Regret & to not do it again is all that's needed. Otherwise it spreads more pain in the universe, because you matter too.

Why do you think you deserve punishment? What did you do?

My mother was a narcissist. She tortured me by sadism to feel in control & powerful. To vent. To clear her conscience she claimed that it was for my own good, to help me better myself. She gave me all the mental disirders & I punched her in the throat. Best day ever.

are you a bullied minority? Do you think you deserve to be punished for being gay & catholic? The priests are pedophiles. Don't belueve the narrow minded church. Find the life partner who loves you. Love is hard to find enough without being told we should be punished for loving an unnaproved person.

Fuck punishment. Unless you're a pedophile.

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

It won't work. You will most likely not be able to starve that long as most humans physically can't, or you will develop anorexia / another eating disorder, which as others have said before yes you can die from due to complications, but it's not fucking easy and everyone around you will notice. (Iv had anorexia and bulimia for 11 years so I'm sorry but I'm low key judging your post and it sounds immature) Bad plan IMO, it's not as easy as you think it is

Wow, keep your opinions to yourself thanks. At no point have I said it's easy. I'm in no way immature, you have absolutely no idea what I've been through so you know what - go judge someone else.

Why do you think you deserve pain? I only hate pedophiles... I think I read that unconditionnal forgiveness can fuck up someone. Because good people can feel guilty, like they created an injustice, and crave punishment to balance their emotional math and be able to let it go. If that's true, it's heart breaking... Because life is unfair all the time and people can do mistakes. Regret & to not do it again is all that's needed. Otherwise it spreads more pain in the universe, because you matter too.

Why do you think you deserve punishment? What did you do?

My mother was a narcissist. She tortured me by sadism to feel in control & powerful. To vent. To clear her conscience she claimed that it was for my own good, to help me better myself. She gave me all the mental disirders & I punched her in the throat. Best day ever.

are you a bullied minority? Do you think you deserve to be punished for being gay & catholic? The priests are pedophiles. Don't belueve the narrow minded church. Find the life partner who loves you. Love is hard to find enough without being told we should be punished for loving an unnaproved person.

Fuck punishment. Unless you're a pedophile.

Nothing like that. I don't want to go into my own trauma but I'm not a criminal or paedo or anything like that. It's more other peoples cruelty on me. Definitely not about to talk about trauma with judgmental fucks lurking about. But thanks for asking @Hollowillow - not aimed at you btw xx

 

[Shikamaru]

Wow, keep your opinions to yourself thanks. At no point have I said it's easy. I'm in no way immature, you have absolutely no idea what I've been through so you know what - go judge someone else.

You made a post about it, open for people to add their opinions.. you said your already on your second day of fasting but feel like it's going to work …. 2 days is nothing compared to complete starvation and you have no idea the hell that comes from developing an eating disorder. I'm just sharing that you don't want to develop one or go through that because it just makes your life 10X worse

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

You made a post about it, open for people to add their opinions.. you said your already on your second day of fasting but feel like it's going to work …. 2 days is nothing compared to complete starvation and you have no idea the hell that comes from developing an eating disorder. I'm just sharing that you don't want to develop one or go through that because it just makes your life 10X worse

Try reading the post idiot - 3 WEEKS tomorrow. Make sure you get you facts right before judging people.

 

[Shikamaru]

Try reading the post idiot - 3 WEEKS tomorrow. Make sure you get you facts right before judging people.

Okay lol . Enjoy the weight loss at least. :)

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Currently on day 18 - it's utter hell. No eating is fine, but I'm so thirsty I could literally drink from the toilet today. No drinking is so painful, an utter misery.

Also without water?

 

[Shikamaru]

Also without water?

Yea I'm confused cause typically the most a person can survive from dehydration is around 10 days … ??

 

[Hollowillow]

Wow, keep your opinions to yourself thanks. At no point have I said it's easy. I'm in no way immature, you have absolutely no idea what I've been through so you know what - go judge someone else.

Nothing like that. I don't want to go into my own trauma but I'm not a criminal or paedo or anything like that. It's more other peoples cruelty on me. Definitely not about to talk about trauma with judgmental fucks lurking about. But thanks for asking @Hollowillow - not aimed at you btw xx

Thank you. That's what I thought. Your agressor should be punished, not you, never you. Please don't. please fight their brainwash.

I have my moments of being a judgemental fuckery. I'm glad you didn't withness any.

If you deserved punishment, I probably would do it...

Yea I'm confused cause typically the most a person can survive from dehydration is around 10 days … ??

I thought it was 4 but I survived that. Someone said 40. Which explains why the bible said that jesus is a big deal to have survived in the desert 40 days. Like a superpower doing the impossible. I guess they would have said 7 days otherwise... 40 days with extreme heart, no food, no water... Walking nonstop... Damn... I saw human skeletons still alive. Barely any muscle & they moved around more easily than me. Wtf is wrong with my body...
Body: "I like to rest to preserve energy, heal and not turn into a skeletton"
Ah...

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

Yea I'm confused cause typically the most a person can survive from dehydration is around 10 days … ??

Hmm, every human follows a text book eh. Depends on your level of exercise, depends on your fitness, depends of how hot your country is. So many variables but hey, don't let that interfere with your 'expertise'.

Now I'm not sure wtf your problem is, maybe your ED is more serious than anyone else's. Maybe your trauma is more valid. Tbh I'm fed up with bellends like you judging people. What would be 'valid' trauma for you?

You made a mistake - you've made yourself look like a absolute dick and now you're deflecting that by implying others are lying. And you call me immature .

 

[Shikamaru]

Hmm, every human follows a text book eh. Depends on your level of exercise, depends on your fitness, depends of how hot your country is. So many variables but hey, don't let that interfere with your 'expertise'.

Now I'm not sure wtf your problem is, maybe your ED is more serious than anyone else's. Maybe your trauma is more valid. Tbh I'm fed up with bellends like you judging people. What would be 'valid' trauma for you?

You made a mistake - you've made yourself look like a absolute dick and now you're deflecting that by implying others are lying. And you call me immature .

Brooo where the hell did I say others were lying? And I don't think I made a mistake legit just replying to ur thread with my honest thoughts . Smoke a fucking joint and relax

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

You made a post about it, open for people to add their opinions.. you said your already on your second day of fasting but feel like it's going to work …. 2 days is nothing compared to complete starvation and you have no idea the hell that comes from developing an eating disorder. I'm just sharing that you don't want to develop one or go through that because it just makes your life 10X worse

Right here - this is where you made a mistake misread and are wrong.

Yea I'm confused cause typically the most a person can survive from dehydration is around 10 days … ??

Right here where you call me a liar.

It won't work. You will most likely not be able to starve that long as most humans physically can't, or you will develop anorexia / another eating disorder, which as others have said before yes you can die from due to complications, but it's not fucking easy and everyone around you will notice. (Iv had anorexia and bulimia for 11 years so I'm sorry but I'm low key judging your post and it sounds immature) Bad plan IMO, it's not as easy as you think it is

And here where you call me immature. You're judging me because you've had ED for 11 years.

I don't have an ED thanks I'm merely commenting on the ops post about starvation method. It's not a good method - I'm not actually trying to kill myself this way - I have SN - you'd know that if you'd bothered to read the posts.

I'm not your bro. Don't tell me what to do and don't invalidate other peoples experience.

 

[Shikamaru]

Right here - this is where you made a mistake misread and are wrong.


Right here where you call me a liar.



And here where you call me immature. You're judging me because you've had ED for 11 years.

I don't have an ED thanks I'm merely commenting on the ops post about starvation method. It's not a good method - I'm not actually trying to kill myself this way - I have SN - you'd know that if you'd bothered to read the posts.

I'm not your bro. Don't tell me what to do and don't invalidate other peoples experience.

Okay bro x

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

You've actually confused me with the OP who says they are on day 2 of not eating. But do me a favour - don't pass your horrible judgement onto them eh. Try to be a little more kind.

A simple sorry will do fine but I'm guessing if I wait for that, it'll be a good method to start a mega thread on.

 

[Shikamaru]

You've actually confused me with the OP who says they are on day 2 of not eating. But do me a favour - don't pass your horrible judgement onto them eh. Try to be a little more kind.

A simple sorry will do fine but I'm guessing if I wait for that, it'll be a good method to start a mega thread on.

My original reply was to the OP, your the one who replied back to it getting all offended when it wasn't even a reply to you. I'm not sorry for anything. Don't be so sensitive