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liberty_222

liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
Hey so i took my first tablet of meto at around 8am today morning. I'll be going through with the 48 hour regime and my sn will be delivered within 24 hours. If everything goes right, tomorrow might be my last day on this earth.
 
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I wish you nothing but the best~ :heart:
 
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I don't know you or your story…is there anything that would make you reconsider?
 
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I don't know you or your story…is there anything that would make you reconsider?
Suicide hotlines exist. We all know about 'em.
 
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Your post confuses me.
Let me rephrase: Coming into a space where people want to feel safe to talk about things like this without judgment or people trying to "save" them, then asking people to reconsider is unethical. No one arrives at this point without careful consideration and understanding the gravity of this choice.
 
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Let me rephrase: Coming into a space where people want to feel safe to talk about things like this without judgment or people trying to "save" them, then asking people to reconsider is unethical. No one arrives at this point without careful consideration and understanding the gravity of this choice.
I didn't try to do anything. Please do not pass judgement.
 
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PeacefulTonic

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Let me rephrase: Coming into a space where people want to feel safe to talk about things like this without judgment or people trying to "save" them, then asking people to reconsider is unethical. No one arrives at this point without careful consideration and understanding the gravity of this choice.
I'm not sure why you're being so antagonistic. He was just asking if there was anything that would make her reconsider
 
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liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
I don't know you or your story…is there anything that would make you reconsider?
Hi sweetie. I genuinely believe there's no hope for redemption. I just need to make it through this. And all the suffering will be gone.
 
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Hi sweetie. I genuinely believe there's no hope for redemption. I just need to make it through this. And all the suffering will be gone.
what brought you here? If it's alright to ask.
 
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liberty_222

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Nov 28, 2021
361
I have BPD which makes me behave in such a manner that i end up losing people even though that is the one thing that breaks me the most.
 
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I've lost a lot of people too unfortunately. My CPTSD encompasses all of the symptoms of BPD. Have you lost people close to you?
 
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PDAnnie2610

Waiting for my bus.
Oct 27, 2019
701
Hi sweetie. I genuinely believe there's no hope for redemption. I just need to make it through this. And all the suffering will be gone.
Peace to you, hope you get it and it's ok to back out. No pressure. I've BPD too, so I know how painful it can be. You are not alone, Liberty.
 
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I have BPD which makes me behave in such a manner that i end up losing people even though that is the one thing that breaks me the most.
Mental illness is rough as fuck. The serious stuff never goes away and sends ripples and waves through the whole of our lives. I feel it, too, and sucks tremendously. I hope you can find peace, however you see fit to attain it.
 
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liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
I've lost a lot of people too unfortunately. My CPTSD encompasses all of the symptoms of BPD. Have you lost people close to you?
I think I've lost everyone. My environment feels rather hostile ngl. And yes CPTSD is very similar to BPD. I can totally understand how you must feel.
Peace to you, hope you get it and it's ok to back out. No pressure. I've BPD too, so I know how painful it can be. You are not alone, Liberty.
Hi baby. I'm so sorry to hear that. BPD is probably one of the worst mental disorders out there. I can't control mine anymore i feel like destroying everything and everyone around me. It's best for me to go. I just need to have the courage to complete what I started a month ago.
Mental illness is rough as fuck. The serious stuff never goes away and sends ripples and waves through the whole of our lives. I feel it, too, and sucks tremendously. I hope you can find peace, however you see fit to attain it.
I am sorry to hear that. I hope you find peace too.
 
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I think I've lost everyone. My environment feels rather hostile ngl. And yes CPTSD is very similar to BPD. I can totally understand how you must feel.
Your environment as in your household? oh and thank you for saying that. I've recently noticed I related to many people with BPD. I did not know BPD symptoms until this week.
 
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liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
Your environment as in your household? oh and thank you for saying that. I've recently noticed I related to many people with BPD. I did not know BPD symptoms until this week.
My environment as in everyone i have known.
 
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My environment as in everyone i have known.
That's exactly how I feel too. I can never tell if it's really how it is or if it's the condition causing misperception.
 
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miserableforever

Arcanist
Oct 23, 2020
488
I'm very sorry about your BPD. I have it too and every day is an embarrassing drag cause I just can't be 'normal'. Everyone hates me by now, even though I mean no harm to the people around me.
I know how this feels.
If you decide to follow through, safe travels my fellow sufferer <3
 
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liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
I'm very sorry about your BPD. I have it too and every day is an embarrassing drag cause I just can't be 'normal'. Everyone hates me by now, even though I mean no harm to the people around me.
I know how this feels.
If you decide to follow through, safe travels my fellow sufferer <3
I feel you. I feel like leaving will be so much more peaceful and people around me will be safer and happier.
 
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stevieu

~ Sleepwalking through every day ~
Feb 10, 2020
147
Hey so i took my first tablet of meto at around 8am today morning. I'll be going through with the 48 hour regime and my sn will be delivered within 24 hours. If everything goes right, tomorrow might be my last day on this earth.
I've never been officially diagnosed as such, but I've experienced the symptoms and effects of CPTSD/BPD for many years and it really takes its toll.

I wish you peace from all your suffering, whatever you choose ❤
 
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liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
Time for my second dose of meto for the day.
 
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PDAnnie2610

Waiting for my bus.
Oct 27, 2019
701
I feel you, fellow comrade. I'm planning to go soon too.
 
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VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
Time for my second dose of meto for the day.
Please test your SN so you know it is legit. Just a reminder. I am happy to have exchanged some words in this forum. Thanks for existing, even if it was painful. Much love with whatever your decision ends up being. If you decide to not go through with it, we will be here.
 
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liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
Please test your SN so you know it is legit. Just a reminder. I am happy to have exchanged some words in this forum. Thanks for existing, even if it was painful. Much love with whatever your decision ends up being. If you decide to not go through with it, we will be here.
Is there any simple way to test it at home? Also thank you so much. It was a pleasure being here.
Are you doing SN or ?
Sn yes
 
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PDAnnie2610

Waiting for my bus.
Oct 27, 2019
701
Is there any simple way to test it at home? Also thank you so much. It was a pleasure being here.

Sn yes
I wish as a fellow BPDer that it is possible for you to keep living. But I know that it's painful. Still, if I can offer my friendship, I would. I know the loneliness of this disorder. Offering hugs...
 
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stupidlife666

Member
Dec 13, 2021
62
Is there any simple way to test it at home? Also thank you so much. It was a pleasure being here.

Sn yes
blood test is best.

use a little blood with it and it should turn brown quickly.
 
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rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
I wish I could help. It's heartbreaking you're in this situation.
 
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DeutscheKartoffel

Reclaiming my human rights & liberty thru suicide.
Dec 12, 2021
361
your life is in your hands,
at any stage,
you don't have to commit suicide if you don't feel like it,

never forget that!
 
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