Spoke with son

[Lily (Osako)]

So last night I sat my son down and told him my plans.
He knows my physical predicament and understands. He doesn't want to see me suffer.
I promised him I'd tell him in advance so we could spend time together and say proper goodbyes.
We both cried. It was so hard to do but I felt like I owe him at least that.
It won't be happening soon, as we have to get him on his feet and set up. So maybe a few months.
I told him he's not allowed to help me at all and I won't be telling him exactly where so he can't ever be held responsible.
I'm so lucky to have such an understanding son.
I wish everyone had this opportunity. It definitely takes a huge chunk of the guilt away.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm so glad that's the situation for you, truly a rare state of affairs. I hope he continues to be understanding as the water grows closer.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be such a relief being in that situation. I wish you the best.

 

[Sick of it all]

How old is your son? I have a 16yo and he has his own mental health issues. That's half the reason I haven't CTB since I don't know how he would handle it. I admire your way about going about it. Hopefully when your time comes you find relief.

 

[Rounded Agony]

Happy to hear you've at least been granted this (not so) small relief from the universe. Maybe his acceptance has validated your own feelings too, which could be a relief...I've only told about three people that "I go to bed every day hoping I don't wake up and live another" which just elicited some sympathetic tones and words, but nothing else. Having that conversation was very courageous of you.

 

[Install-Gentoo]

I hope it doesn't hit him super hard, but I'm glad he is at least understanding of you. I think it's good that you told him, because it would be bad to come as a shock.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

How old is your son? I have a 16yo and he has his own mental health issues. That's half the reason I haven't CTB since I don't know how he would handle it. I admire your way about going about it. Hopefully when your time comes you find relief.

My son is in his 20s

 

[Sick of it all]

My son is in his 20s

Ok then he has a bit of maturity on his side. I'm sure hearing of your plans was a hard thing, as I'm sure telling him was hard also.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

I hope it doesn't hit him super hard, but I'm glad he is at least understanding of you. I think it's good that you told him, because it would be bad to come as a shock.

I told him I hope it didn't hit too hard. That I felt like it was better to tell him ahead of time rather than be surprised by it.
He agreed and said he'd rather know this way.

Ok then he has a bit of maturity on his side. I'm sure hearing of your plans was a hard thing, as I'm sure telling him was hard also.

It really was.