soul pain. how to fix??? i beg you.

[3rd worlder issues]

please bare with me. it all started in 2020 when I became homeless and got addicted to sleep drugs to help sleeping in winter days...
it triggered the soul pain. i cried alot but felt like god. i sold my soul to demons. done pity crimes. and many other pathetic shit.
went alone to a male psychiatrist for more sleep drugs.. those were my only cope to get numb. ive done cold turkey twice and both were HELL but I went normal again when got in medical major at uni.. (sleep pill make memory shit.)
now I do these sleep pills again for socializing. i got massive reputation... at uni.. streets too and im currently under local authorities surveillance 100%...




the point is. i see all my relatives escaped 3rd world and now living their best life and when I look at their pic at Facebook i get brutal soul pain ache.
brothers i just wanna end it all but I'm too lazy /too smart to kill myself in a painful ways... if i had sodium p3ntobarbuturatessss id d9 it now 100%.


>inb4 inject t /get some sun/lift weights/go out/dnrd/get gf/get job

soul pain deeper my brothers... i seriously want to cry but cant
what the fuck happened to me.

 

[Red]

I'm so sorry for your pain, this wrenches at my heart to read…

People present a picture on social media that is often not reality, ie they will only show the good and not the bad. Their lives may not be as great as they seem.

Is there anything that brings you joy or comfort that isn't drug based? Any interests or hobbies that you can throw yourself into for distraction and self improvement? Even the smallest thing can be a lifeline when you are at your lowest!

Take heart, dear soul, and know that we are here for you - many of us feel pain like yours and sometimes knowing that you are not alone in this cold world can help find a way forward.

My inbox is always open if you need to talk

 

[3rd worlder issues]

I'm so sorry for your pain, this wrenches at my heart to read…

People present a picture on social media that is often not reality, ie they will only show the good and not the bad. Their lives may not be as great as they seem.

Is there anything that brings you joy or comfort that isn't drug based? Any interests or hobbies that you can throw yourself into for distraction and self improvement? Even the smallest thing can be a lifeline when you are at your lowest!

Take heart, dear soul, and know that we are here for you - many of us feel pain like yours and sometimes knowing that you are not alone in this cold world can help find a way forward.

My inbox is always open if you need to talk

thank you for being nice. i indeed have nothing to spike my serotonin/dopamin. I'm okay with it but the borderline as a MALE with all these combo is just fucked up. i might be online crying rn and tomorrow wake up asking wtf i was doing and why did i wrote these.

rollcoster of eternal emptiness and that's the core of soul pain.

ur nice I wish u nice beautiful day bro/sis

 

[Red]

Hey no it's okay to vent, we all do it and it's a much needed part of working through the healing process. Your plight is just as valid as anyone else's in the world!

I know it's hard when you feel so low but finding any positive thought or action at this point is vital and worth seeking out and clinging onto. There must be something?

I wish the same for you my friend! Sending love and support your way from your sis in U.K.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so unbearable what you are going through. I'm sorry that you have to endure this. I hope you find a way to find relief from your pain, I wish you the best.

 

[Shu]

Try water fasting.

 

[JamieJambo]

please bare with me. it all started in 2020 when I became homeless and got addicted to sleep drugs to help sleeping in winter days...
it triggered the soul pain. i cried alot but felt like god. i sold my soul to demons. done pity crimes. and many other pathetic shit.
went alone to a male psychiatrist for more sleep drugs.. those were my only cope to get numb. ive done cold turkey twice and both were HELL but I went normal again when got in medical major at uni.. (sleep pill make memory shit.)
now I do these sleep pills again for socializing. i got massive reputation... at uni.. streets too and im currently under local authorities surveillance 100%...




the point is. i see all my relatives escaped 3rd world and now living their best life and when I look at their pic at Facebook i get brutal soul pain ache.
brothers i just wanna end it all but I'm too lazy /too smart to kill myself in a painful ways... if i had sodium p3ntobarbuturatessss id d9 it now 100%.


>inb4 inject t /get some sun/lift weights/go out/dnrd/get gf/get job

soul pain deeper my brothers... i seriously want to cry but cant
what the fuck happened to me.

Thats rough mate!

 

[3rd worlder issues]

That must be so unbearable what you are going through. I'm sorry that you have to endure this. I hope you find a way to find relief from your pain, I wish you the best.

thank you..

Thats rough mate!

yeah man..

 

[hopelessgirl]

please bare with me. it all started in 2020 when I became homeless and got addicted to sleep drugs to help sleeping in winter days...
it triggered the soul pain. i cried alot but felt like god. i sold my soul to demons. done pity crimes. and many other pathetic shit.
went alone to a male psychiatrist for more sleep drugs.. those were my only cope to get numb. ive done cold turkey twice and both were HELL but I went normal again when got in medical major at uni.. (sleep pill make memory shit.)
now I do these sleep pills again for socializing. i got massive reputation... at uni.. streets too and im currently under local authorities surveillance 100%...




the point is. i see all my relatives escaped 3rd world and now living their best life and when I look at their pic at Facebook i get brutal soul pain ache.
brothers i just wanna end it all but I'm too lazy /too smart to kill myself in a painful ways... if i had sodium p3ntobarbuturatessss id d9 it now 100%.


>inb4 inject t /get some sun/lift weights/go out/dnrd/get gf/get job

soul pain deeper my brothers... i seriously want to cry but cant
what the fuck happened to me.

Seretonin is a good way to get rid of soul pain. You can get it from your doctor. It helps your body cope with the distress from your grief of life.

 

[3rd worlder issues]

Seretonin is a good way to get rid of soul pain. You can get it from your doctor. It helps your body cope with the distress from your grief of life.

teach me how to be a serotonin getter bro

 

[anxious_depressive]

I am also tormented by mental pain.
It feels like there is a heavy load on your chest and it is very difficult to even take a breath.

I understand your feelings and I am sorry that you are suffering so much.

Unfortunately, I do not know how to alleviate this feeling.
When I have the strength, I go out for a long walk.
Physical fatigue, slightly reduces mental suffering.

Hugs.