Venting Sorry to the girl I used to be

[Polyxo]

She was so cute. She was smart. She had endless potential.

I feel so ashamed.

 

[PI3.14]

I feel the same way towards my younger self

 

[_Gollum_]

Same. I mourn that person. She died many years ago. Now all that's left is me.

 

[Feldsparc]

I feel the same. But my true self existed 3 years ago...i was happy with a loving family, bubbly, respected with a great job. Now I'm nothing... nothing at all. And I can't go back to who I was. Went through extreme trauma and an affair that pulled me away from my family and myself. My whole identity has changed and I miss the mother and wife that I was. Can't die too because I need to be alive for my son. So just surviving.. that's what I do everyday. No joy, peace or anything. I'm a corpse.
I used to have a fancy job which I managed so well...I was thriving. And the affair just destroyed my self confidence and self worth. Obviously. Its a wrong thing to do. But I couldn't stop because of my people pleasing and weak attitude. i couldn't just say no because I was scared of abandonment. All my childhood traumas were activated and I couldn't stop. If I had I would be happy today. Instead I've lost everything and by everything I mean everything

 

[Penelope12]

I feel like you