Sorrow accompanied by intrigue

[sacrilegeofsouls]

Well you know there are certainly a variety of reasons due to which I wish to hang up my coat and call it a day. But it's not solely the spiritual liveleak video that my life has organised for me there remains another reason. One that motivates me equally as much sometimes and that is the thought of what comes after death. It's one of my favourite things to think about the possibilities excite me beyond measure. Now could it simply be lights out? maybe sure but I don't quite think so or atleast if there is a lights out blank fade into nothingness that would happen to us I don't think that will necessarily be tied to the cessation of our physical/biological existences I think we aren't purely physical beings basically perhaps this death won't be the final one simply a step up the ladder. But that also terrifies me I wouldn't want to do it and find out I can't fade away. Honestly I kind of just wish the entire history of my life was forgotten by the universe not simply me fading away but me never having materialized

 

[poisonivygrows]

this fascinates me too. i honestly get so happy thinking that after i die, i won't have to be "me" anymore, or rather that my perspective/consciousness won't be tied to this "one thing"/my body/"me". i feel like i'm going to return to a greater consciousness/perspective that includes both me and all other things. or at least that's what i hope will happen. i hope "i" get to experience feelings that are greater than sadness, love, jealousy, affection, etc. the scope of what we as living humans can experience is actually not so great.

 

[sacrilegeofsouls]

this fascinates me too. i honestly get so happy thinking that after i die, i won't have to be "me" anymore, or rather that my perspective/consciousness won't be tied to this "one thing"/my body/"me". i feel like i'm going to return to a greater consciousness/perspective that includes both me and all other things. or at least that's what i hope will happen. i hope "i" get to experience feelings that are greater than sadness, love, jealousy, affection, etc. the scope of what we as living humans can experience is actually not so great.

Yeah i have similar ideas though for me I think each of us has a soul with its own truth that gets muddied out by the noise of our brains our biological instincts for sex greed conquest. I think when I die I can be my true self and embody it's ideals and not be disturbed by the nagging of my body