Sometimes I wish I was murdered

[FutureHanger]

Sometimes I wish I was murdered as after all it's the only "suicide" method that can't be stopped by SI. Sometimes I think of being hit by a stray bullet, ran over by a car etc. or that I became a gang member so a rival would kill me in a drive by.

 

[onbekend]

Feel that. I wanna die peacefully but at the same time it would be nice if death could take me without having to do it myself, regardless of how violent it is.

 

[sserafim]

Same I think about this all the time. Hopefully one day my manifestation will come true.

 

[divinemistress36]

I fantasize about this often

 

[Gonnerr]

Me too , im jealous of people getting killed either criminally or by natural disaster and people having terminal cancer with only few months to live. SI cannot prevent death in that case.

 

[Meteora]

Oh I feel that. I wish I was involved in some deadly accident.

 

[motob]

Yeah I think about it frequently. I hope it's just fast and not around people I know so they're not freaking out as it happens. Then your death isn't even stigmatized and all taboo to talk about. You're just someone who was "gone too soon".

 

[Silent Raindrops]

I think we all feel that way... I have the kind of luck that if someone put a gun to my head and pulled the trigger, the bullet would still miss.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Would be a fine way to go.

 

[Major Tom]

Isn't it weird. What is the difference if i order someone to shoot me and me shooting myself? Do i still have to overcome my survival instincts?

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I feel as though many of you here would think differently with a blade plunged into your ribs and organs.

Being headshot would be best but having an ape shank you over and over isn't very fun.

Ive personally witnessed the aftermath, bloody arms and all, nah.

 

[xoirse]

honestly, same. in this way, i don't owe it to anyone to explain about how i truly feel inside before dying. my existence is already a burden so i'd rather have it die with me.

 

[FutureHanger]

I feel as though many of you here would think differently with a blade plunged into your ribs and organs.

Being headshot would be best but having an ape shank you over and over isn't very fun.

Ive personally witnessed the aftermath, bloody arms and all, nah.

I'm perfectly aware most murders are painful it's just a feeling I get sometimes. No need to make me picture such scenes tho

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I'm perfectly aware most murders are painful it's just a feeling I get sometimes. No need to make me picture such scenes tho

Yea i get that bud, just saying that doing the deed yourself would probably be less traumatic in your final moments.

 

[thegoldengirls]

Maybe if we talk about it enough, it can be manifested. I think that's what occurred with Tupac.
Sure, his lifestyle caught up with him with his premature death, but I do feel that there are also power in the repetitive use of words.
He constantly talked and rapped about an early death. His depression was a cause of him talking about it all the time.
That's why I think about myself dying young all the time, maybe I'll get lucky and won't have to worry about the hassle of ctb on my own.
I also occasionally watch those murder docu-series, and envy the victims (only if their murders were quik, I don'twant a painful death) and wish that their deaths happened to me instead.
Especially, being that alot of these victims seem to have loved and appreciated their lives, and looked forward to their futures.
I wish there was an underground forum or secret society where suicidal people could link up with sociopaths to arrange their murders. That way the sociopaths can have their itch scratched, and we could get our own wishes.
Too risky and too much of a liability for that to ever happen though.

 

[lifewasawillowtv]

Right? It's always people who want to live and have so much to live for who somehow end up getting murdered, meanwhile those of us who want to ctb struggle to die for ages.