Sometimes chatting about suicide is depressing.

[Someone123]

Am I the only one to experience this?

 

[Smart No More]

I flipflop between between taking solace in having somewhere to talk openly with people and the stark reality of what I'm facing. It's never going to be the best subject matter unless you're perfectly fine and have romantic notions surround it. When you're in the pit of despair then you're constantly in and out of a state of disbelief I find. It's horrid.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Yes. It can be depressing but it can also be cathartic. If you constantly think about it then finding like minded people to discuss it with may be therapeutic

 

[motel rooms]

Certain people get a(n almost sexual) thrill out of talking about it, which is a bit disturbing.

 

[edu0z]

Am I the only one to experience this?

Yes... it's the worst there is. A lot of times I'm not even depressed, just suicidal. Then I start reading things or looking for information... my mind porcesa things, and I get depressed.

 

[1lastchance]

I do find it cathartic. I have no friends. And zero social life. My coworkers can sense weakness and fear and they pile on with their passive aggressive statements. Which only exacerbate my depression and anxiety. This is why I finally wanted to have an account. So I could have a place to vent my feelings without judgment. The whole two people I interact with daily have already made it clear that misery loves company and they don't want to be apart of my mental decline.

it's like going out to try and save a drowning person. You could try…. But in their struggle they may drag you down with them and then you both drown in sea of despair. So if your intent on saving someone else. Make sure your a strong swimmer. If you feel like your drowning…. Well good luck, most will just pass you up and won't put in the effort you help. And those that do will only put in just enough effort just to make themselves feel good without really helping you at all.

 

[motel rooms]

Am I the only one to experience this?

Why don't you just stop chatting about it the moment it ceases to be therapeutic/cathartic? People talk about all kinds of other stuff on here. It's often more therapeutic to just shoot the shit & laugh with other members. Making fun of myself & ribbing other friendly people always makes me feel a little better.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

it's like going out to try and save a drowning person. You could try…. But in their struggle they may drag you down with them and then you both drown in sea of despair. So if your intent on saving someone else. Make sure your a strong swimmer. If you feel like your drowning…. Well good luck, most will just pass you up and won't put in the effort you help. And those that do will only put in just enough effort just to make themselves feel good without really helping you at all.

Everyone has their own problems to deal with. At the end of the day you are all alone in this world.

 

[1lastchance]

Everyone has their own problems to deal with. At the end of the day you are all alone in this world.

To the extent that no other human will help lift us out of the pit that we are each in. Because we by nature can only see past our own problems in life. I feel that plight every single day. We all do. That's human nature to be selfish and it's also what society teaches us as well.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

To the extent that no other human will help lift us out of the pit that we are each in. Because we by nature can only see past our own problems in life. I feel that plight every single day. We all do. That's human nature to be selfish and it's also what society teaches us as well.

That's just survival instinct. The same instinct that keeps us on this death march. Forced to continue all the way to the grave.

 

[Smart No More]

Yeah, it's unfortunate that it appears to be in human nature so much these day but I disagree that it actually is. I think it's more a snowball effect. Nurture rather than nature. There are some selfless/decent people around. They're just being killed off. Red squirrel meet grey squirrel.

 

[Mr2005]

No I'd rather talk about anything else

 

[motel rooms]

They're just being killed off. Red squirrel meet grey squirrel.

 

[Naufrago]

You are not the only one to feel it, the subject is sad and often desperate, consequently depressing. A lot of us don't want to, but we need the CTB.

 

[FuneralCry]

No. The thing that is depressing is my life and the fact that I am still alive. In a way it can be comforting talking and thinking about suicide, as it is the one way to end the suffering and to be at peace. I find it depressing to talk about other topics, in particular the future. Sometimes talking about it makes me feel more confident that I can actually go through with it. It reminds me that no matter what I can exit this world, even if it is difficult. Death is my freedom.

 

[demuic]

Living is depressing. Suicide is comforting for me.

 

[yive]

Living is depressing. Suicide is comforting for me.

No. The thing that is depressing is my life and the fact that I am still alive. In a way it can be comforting talking and thinking about suicide, as it is the one way to end the suffering and to be at peace. I find it depressing to talk about other topics, in particular the future. Sometimes talking about it makes me feel more confident that I can actually go through with it. It reminds me that no matter what I can exit this world, even if it is difficult. Death is my freedom.

this. i hate life, and suicide is the ONLY thing i want to talk about

 

[Sakura94]

As I said before, I'd prefer not to be here but the threads give me the feeling I can escape when I want to even though it's actually really hard to do. I want to escape, funeralcry above sums up these thoughts better. I like the idea of suicide far more than thinking of the future.
What is the future anyway? Being more connected with the social environment? More surveillance? The vast amount of people today seem to love being engaged in gossip and drama. I don't want to be connected with any of that. This is a genuine question I can't see a decent future at all.

 

[grungeCat]

Well, it depends on what you mean by it. Chatting about suicide is depressing in itself, it can also be annoying if you're arguing with pro-lifer or other person who doesn't know how it feels like to be suicidal. However if I encounter soul which is similar to me then I feel better afterwards. As I feel like somebody understands my problems and has no issue in putting themself in the shoes of me.

 

[Ch92921]

Certain people get a(n almost sexual) thrill out of talking about it, which is a bit disturbing.

Like me

 

[noname223]

Sometimes it makes me depressed and sometimes it helps to cope. I try to have only a little dosage of this forum normally. Spending hours in it at just one day is not good for me. Though I feel like becoming depressed again. So fuck this rule. Then I really need this forum.
It is ambivalent. In my darkest times it really helps to talk about suicide. So this forum is really important for me.

 

[Pluto]

It can be depressing, but the same thing happens every time I try coming up with some sort of genuine plan for recovery only to realise that it will end up like the previous thousand attempts. Then talking about CTB is a source of comfort, ironically being a sense of hope.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

A mixed bag for me. I find comfort in my own suicide and talking about planning and what led me to this. Yet, at the same time, it makes me even more sad. Still want to see what I can learn and who I can help, but, I just don't have the energy, will or concentration to do it anymore. I just need to go.

Regarding others talking about it, it always breaks my heart. I HATE seeing good people suffer and this forum is full of them. On the other hand I sometimes feel a bit of joy for the few good things in their lives or the fact that they find comfort in having a way out if necessary.

In conclusion, this forum is like a double edged sword. It is the only place most of us can go to find solace among like minded individuals, yet, it's one of the saddest places on the internet and that can and will weigh heavy upon us the longer we stay....

 

[RazzleDazzle]

Chatting about it oddly enough keeps me from progressing further towards doing it. I'm much more sad when I read other people posting about their suicidal thoughts and plans than I am about my own. For me suicide just seems like relief.

 

[Labean]

Я единственный, кто испытал это?

Привет. К сожалению, мы живем разумом. А разум коварен, он может быть и судьей, и палачом, и эта двойственность его зависит от слишком многих факторов. Лучшие умы человечества пытаются решить эту проблему, но так и не пришли к единому мнению. Что ж, поговорим о нас, маленькие серые мышки. Боюсь, что мы никогда не узнаем, правильно ли мы поступаем в жизни или в своей жизни. Потому что любые наши действия нужно будет рассматривать в отношении различных аспектов типа религии, общества и других. Но тот, кто победит в оценке наших действий, в будущем будет считаться точкой опоры.

 

[9kevinngannou]

I don't. Speaking about it in general don't make me feel in any particular way, although reading/talking about certain peoples stories who failed or people that feel so hopeless that they want to do it makes me sad.