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chlorine

chlorine

I am free, therefore I am lost.
Apr 12, 2019
217
For me, I'd say a life where I'm loved.
 
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TheDevilsAngel

TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree
Apr 22, 2019
767
Happiness for sure....
 
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not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
the Marijuanas. Endless high with no tolerance or comedown.
Endless Shrimp at Red Lobster lol.
 
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omoidarui

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
Apr 30, 2019
993
the weekend
 
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Rukia

Rukia

Enlightened
Jun 3, 2019
1,078
Life but without sorrow, problems so on...
 
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Jolene40

Specialist
Oct 6, 2018
370
Good health
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
Dreamless sleep
 
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Lara Francis

Lara Francis

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Jun 30, 2018
1,627
Jaffa cakes :pfff:
 
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wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,790
sunny days
 
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GinaIsReady

GinaIsReady

Exit Strategist
Mar 29, 2019
995
Significant disposable cash
 
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GinaIsReady

Exit Strategist
Mar 29, 2019
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inconsequential

inconsequential

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Jun 1, 2019
1,011
The feeling of oxycodone.
 
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CopyPK

Member
Jun 17, 2019
12
@chlorine i second your answer, and i would like to make it more specific. i would like to be loved for who i am. something which i understand is not possible in this life. to be loved for the person you truly are, where your appearance and mannerisms do not matter at all. i cannot tell of the countless stories ive heard of people ho have been together with their significant other 40+ years, then posting a blog post or quora answer on their significant other becoming a "whole different person" who used to be good adjective 1, good adjective 2, good adjective 3, but is now bad adjective 1, bad adjective 2, bad adjective 3. just the way they talk about their SO suggests that they never really KNEW their partner in the first place, just a superficial image. I for one, understand what true love is, and I invest most of my energy into understanding my SO, making my SO feel loved for who she is. but im not doing a good job unfortunately, i think recently, ive just been pushing her away.
 
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dhk96

dhk96

Member
May 8, 2018
94
I wish the period of time when I was a toddler lasted forever. Literally just freeze that state/moment of time forever, with nothing and no one changing. No one can disappoint me by changing or becoming their own person and leaving me alone. I couldn't really be able to disappoint others either, and I'd have an semi-valid excuse as a kid to be a pitiful, worthless human being. I don't want to be forced to feel I'm the tragic fake main character of a story whose characters just up and go to enter their own stories as I grow up. I can't see a happy ending--or present for that matter--anywhere for me. I never could. Even my own story doesn't want me in it.

If a certain moment can't be frozen, at least have that period of time replay over and over again (so it lasts forever). I can do different things everyday until there's nothing left to do or until I finally get the courage to end myself.
 
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Life sucks

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Apr 18, 2018
2,136
I want time to freeze when I eat a delicious meal or play a game I love
 
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blanketyblk

Mage
Jun 9, 2019
574
Innocents - living without ever seeing the bad in the world. that would be nice.
 
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Daigoro’sDisciple

Member
Jul 6, 2019
20
Mutual empathy between all living creatures.
 
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Dartz

Dartz

Give Me The Dirt
Jun 29, 2018
613
The occasional little moment of paradise
 
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Brainpain

chronic pain
Jun 14, 2019
106
My fun dreams at night. And sleep in general
 
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ScorpiusDragon

Mage
Mar 25, 2019
593
Friendship
 
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Asta

Specialist
Jun 7, 2019
318
Living in the Afterlife and never returning to this world.
 
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Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
The time I spent with close friends.
 
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riverstyx

Experienced
May 31, 2019
218
Forever is a long time. I guess eternal bliss is acceptable.
 
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Halo13

Wizard
May 9, 2019
671
Pain relief
 
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not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
I'm in a city and an apartment I love, and I have to leave in three weeks.
I wish the next three weeks would never end.
Dreading August. Probably be settled in a new place by September, if not, probably ctb.
 
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Laststop

Laststop

Experienced
Jul 9, 2019
243
I'm in a city and an apartment I love, and I have to leave in three weeks.
I wish the next three weeks would never end.
Dreading August. Probably be settled in a new place by September, if not, probably ctb.
I hear you man. I too have loved where I am. I got away from my family's bullshit. I've been here 20 years. It was the first place I had of my own. Now I have no job, and need to CTB. I got rid of a bunch of stuff today, so it's already starting. It's depressing. As I load things to give away to charity shops I see the time I've spent here bleeding away. I also have no where else to go. Nothing viable. I hope something works out for you.
I have a very specific time in mind. I've said I wish I could live in this time forever to myself, and others, countless times. It wasn't very long. I was living with my grandparents. The bullshit my father was into kept him where he was, and my grandparents had moved to a new State. So, for a while, it was just us. My grandparents, my bother and sister for a while, but it was cool, and me. I went to school for my last year. I flunked, and my father made me quit school to go out and work. Right after my last year he moved up, got yet another wife, and ruined the whole thing for me. But, for a while, it was great! I walked in the woods all the time, and would comeback to the house (this is out in the country) across the field out back, with it getting dark, and wondering what great supper gram was going to make tonight. I had a lake to swim in, and a nearby "town" where we could do the normal things. A mall that was small, but we had one. Movies when the money was there, video arcade, renting VHS movies from the mom and pop owned independent stores, some friends, and even a couple girlfriends. I had dreams, and no health issues. I was a total day dreamer. I would fantasize about the adventures I was going to have. Some of which I actually did do. But more often than not it was half done, and/or failed. I use to drive everywhere with my grandma in her big Cadillac. We would go grocery shopping. I so miss that ritual. I'd be thinking of the cereal I wanted before we got to town, but the right combination of cereal and toy prize had to be found! When we left I would bring the cart out and load them in the car for gram. We would also go to fruit and vegetable stands, thrift stores, just all kinds of places that we usually did regularly. A lot of these things we had always done, but during this time it was just us, in every way. No father to have to worry about going back home to after it was over. Knowing the chances were good he'd be drunk, and swinging fists. He liked to hit me in the side of the head open handed. I'd be seeing stars. Not during this time. Things weren't great, and we were what a lot of people would consider poor. But it was the best time in my life as a boy. Nothing I've ever done has equaled it. I had it no where hear as good as many, but better that many others as well. Thinking about it in the past has sent me crying, or given me a panic attack. Right now I feel empty.
 
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oopswronglife

Elementalist
Jun 27, 2019
870
I'm in a city and an apartment I love, and I have to leave in three weeks.
I wish the next three weeks would never end.
Dreading August.

I had that same experience. I cried the night before my flight and dragged it out as long as I could. I knew leaving was a mistake but thought I had to try to rebuild and take an opportunity. It was in August too. One of those moments I wish I could go back to and undo. Not that it would have made a difference in the end, but at least I would have had a few years in a place I loved rather than what I have now.
 
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not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
I had that same experience. I cried the night before my flight and dragged it out as long as I could. I knew leaving was a mistake but thought I had to try to rebuild and take an opportunity. It was in August too. One of those moments I wish I could go back to and undo. Not that it would have made a difference in the end, but at least I would have had a few years in a place I loved rather than what I have now.
I actually think my move will end up being an improvement. The place I'm in is beautiful, but full of lying vultures. I just really loved this city. But I can't stay.
 
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