Never thought of doing a recording. My voice is pretty low and monotonous so I don't think it would be a good thing to leave behind.
However, I was writing a note but deleted it a week ago. Sounds silly, but I wanted to send it to my boss (who I was kind of in love with). I don't really feel the need to leave it so someone else. Family is completely fucked even though we still live together - parents, older brother and me. My best friend, I guess, became a truck driver early summer and I haven't seen or spoken to him him since. Other two or three friends i have are drifting away and I don't really have anything to say to them. They go on with their lives while I wither away in my room. Last saw them a month ago.
Started ranting without realising. What was the topic? Something to leave behind. As I said I wanted to send a note to a woman who in truth I barely know but I deleted it. It just seemed stupid and I figured it was traumatise her and make her blame herself. We did talk a bit about my problems but obviously she didn't want to talk about it much. I'm 99% sure she figured out I like her and started hating me, as it is customary with me. Maybe 'hate' is too strong a word but she definitely changed over night.
Anyway, SN should arrive today. Tried the night-night and partial several times but couldn't do it properly. I don't feel like leaving a note at all now. Family should know why. Mom will be broken.
I'm ranting again, sorry. No one to talk to.