cymbaline23
Member
- May 1, 2024
- 26
As someone who's male, it feels like my life has no value. My value is entirely determined by the things I have and what I can provide. I believe it's men's fault things are like this, because we made the rules. Unfortunately, I don't think unconditional love exists. It seems like it's just transactional. I hate the nature of life, gender roles, and how everyone is limited to primal thinking. I hate not being able to do the things most other people can do because of whatever the hell is wrong with me. Sometimes I wish I could be normal, despite having no will or desire to conform to this system, despite everything and everyone being so inauthentic. I'm a loving person, and I would do anything in my ability for the ones I love, but I can hardly do shit. I'd like to feel loved, but I don't think that's possible, especially with who I am and my limitations. Just venting, I had to get this out. I couldn't stop thinking about it and I started feeling suicidal. And ik other people go through bad/worse things too, others feelings are valid too and I'm not trying to compete or take away from that. I hate seeing anyone in pain from how unfairly this world works.