Social Media is Eating Me Alive

[StrawberryBlood]

I just want to be an artist. A creative. The internet is so painful. I hate social media and I'm tired of the misery everyone on those platforms wallow in. I have enough misery from real life, I don't need to invent more on the internet. My guts hurt from repeated rejection.

 

[DoAnythingMore]

I feel you. Most social medias have turned into a toxic hellhole. But I believe there is hope for you to achieve your dream of becoming an artist, you just need to keep at it.

What kind of art do you make? Have you started any social media accounts where you share your posts? (Ofc no need to share them here)

I also hate the majority of social media, but I've managed to keep my social media needs on YouTube watching gaming videos which are "fully detached" from the real world (as in they solely focus on the gameplay). For bedtime browsing I've followed a few Reddit's which also never bring up any real world drama and stay generally positive.

Also if you make art, you're already an artist. The moment you start creating art you'll be one. I assume it's that you want to make a living out of being an artist and that's what bothers you?

 

[StrawberryBlood]

I feel you. Most social medias have turned into a toxic hellhole. But I believe there is hope for you to achieve your dream of becoming an artist, you just need to keep at it.

What kind of art do you make? Have you started any social media accounts where you share your posts? (Ofc no need to share them here)

I also hate the majority of social media, but I've managed to keep my social media needs on YouTube watching gaming videos which are "fully detached" from the real world (as in they solely focus on the gameplay). For bedtime browsing I've followed a few Reddit's which also never bring up any real world drama and stay generally positive.

Also if you make art, you're already an artist. The moment you start creating art you'll be one. I assume it's that you want to make a living out of being an artist and that's what bothers you?

I just want people to care about my art. I don't even need money. I just feel like social media rejects me because my work is dark. I just feel like crying anymore. I've been so down about it. I just don't know what to do anymore. No one cares.

 

[DoAnythingMore]

I just want people to care about my art. I don't even need money. I just feel like social media rejects me because my work is dark. I just feel like crying anymore. I've been so down about it. I just don't know what to do anymore. No one cares.

There are people who care! And I promise you there are people out there who would care and enjoy your art if they manage to find it.

And that's the problem with social media in my opinion, everyone is so dependant on the algorithms that they don't necessarily go out to seek out what they actually want to see and enjoy.
Do you think there are any Reddit pages (for example) that are made for the style of art that you're doing? And I bet there are at least some forums and websites out there who share a similiar passion and where you could find people who are looking for your style of art.

May I ask how has social media rejected your work? Of course you don't need to answer if you don't want to.

 

[StrawberryBlood]

There are people who care! And I promise you there are people out there who would care and enjoy your art if they manage to find it.

And that's the problem with social media in my opinion, everyone is so dependant on the algorithms that they don't necessarily go out to seek out what they actually want to see and enjoy.
Do you think there are any Reddit pages (for example) that are made for the style of art that you're doing? And I bet there are at least some forums and websites out there who share a similiar passion and where you could find people who are looking for your style of art.

May I ask how has social media rejected your work? Of course you don't need to answer if you don't want to.

My reddit experience is very bad and I'm never going back.

No one cares. I'm ignored. People only give my work attention to try and get me to pay attention to them instead.

It all just hurts so much. I don't really want to be alive anymore. No one cares. I don't know if they ever will. My creative pursuits are part of why I'm even still alive and I'm really starting to think it's not worth it.
I don't want to live. I don't want to shower or go to work today. I just want to die. I don't really understand the point of me anymore. I'm just broken and mean and terrible and weird and no one likes me online because I never fit into to their stupid internet cliques. People like me irl so I don't know why the internet rejects me. It just hurts. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

 

[DoAnythingMore]

My reddit experience is very bad and I'm never going back.

No one cares. I'm ignored. People only give my work attention to try and get me to pay attention to them instead.

It all just hurts so much. I don't really want to be alive anymore. No one cares. I don't know if they ever will. My creative pursuits are part of why I'm even still alive and I'm really starting to think it's not worth it.
I don't want to live. I don't want to shower or go to work today. I just want to die. I don't really understand the point of me anymore. I'm just broken and mean and terrible and weird and no one likes me online because I never fit into to their stupid internet cliques. People like me irl so I don't know why the internet rejects me. It just hurts. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

People online can be very weird. Don't take it to your heart if someone random online has made you feel bad, the odds are that they're feeling horrible and are taking it out on people online.

The journey of an artist can be very hard, but I'd like to believe it's worth it when they get to a point where they're satisfied. It's something worth not giving up on.

You don't seem weird, broken or mean. Of course this is coming from someone who has only read your posts on here. To me it seems like you're just worried about your passion and that's completely normal and acceptable. You said that people like you IRL but not online, would it be possible that you've had very unfortunate people come your way and you've just been unlucky? I genuinely believe you can find people who appreciate your art and you as a person.

Maybe it's worth trying to pursue your dream as an artist without the internet. Nowadays it's pretty hard as everything is online, but could there be an art gallery or something in your country where you can create and showcase your art?

What's your "goal" in doing art? Is it to express your emotions? Is it to try and inspire people or give them comfort by expressing emotions people can relate to?
What's your dream scenario in your art career?

It all just hurts so much. I don't really want to be alive anymore. No one cares.
I don't want to live. I don't want to shower or go to work today. I just want to die.
It just hurts. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

I feel this... I feel the same way. I wish I could help you better.