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Neverfeltdeader

Neverfeltdeader

Can you hear me drift away?
Dec 12, 2021
132
Social interactions have become hell for me. I'm at my friend's show and I just want to cry in front of all these strangers. How is it possible that I get more joy from this forum than real life? I just wish one of these mother fuckers in this room was just as suicidal as I am.

Anyone else get this way in a large crowd?
 
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Novacaine

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Oct 30, 2023
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Yes, don't like large crowds.
 
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stillmirenai

stillmirenai

everything is fragile.
Mar 29, 2023
292
I used to start sweating bullets when in a large crowd. Even now, just being around lots of people tires me out. I get you.

About wanting the other people to be just as suicidal as you? Not really... sorry. The large majority of people are very emotionally, I guess young in terms to what we feel, but it doesn't mean I'd wish this upon them...

Society is already frustrating enough as it is. Don't make it harder on yourself.
 
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Labyrinth

There is no escaping the burden of existence
Jan 8, 2024
217
I am antisocial and have difficulty interacting with strangers. This causes me enormous neurochemical stress and fatigue. But in presentations with large crowds I recommend the technique of ignoring them and focusing on the objective of your presentation.

If I can do it, you can too.
 
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Neverfeltdeader

Neverfeltdeader

Can you hear me drift away?
Dec 12, 2021
132
I used to start sweating bullets when in a large crowd. Even now, just being around lots of people tires me out. I get you.

About wanting the other people to be just as suicidal as you? Not really... sorry. The large majority of people are very emotionally, I guess young in terms to what we feel, but it doesn't mean I'd wish this upon them...

Society is already frustrating enough as it is. Don't make it harder on yourself.
I guess I just want to find that one person that relates to me, you know. Everyone just seemed so happy. I feel so alone in crowd. Even when I know many people there, it's just not the same.
 
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Groundhog_Day

Student
Dec 5, 2023
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I guess I just want to find that one person that relates to me, you know. Everyone just seemed so happy. I feel so alone in crowd. Even when I know many people there, it's just not the same.
I know what you mean. I have avpd, and always have panic attacks in any social situation with people I don't know.

Everyone seems to either be relaxed and happy, or at least able to fake it. Meanwhile I feel like I'm in a room with a lion that is about to eat me alive, and every muscle in my body is tensed, and I almost can't stop myself from running out of the room. Fun times.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Yeah, I get very nervous in crowds that I need to interact with. That sounds like hell to me!
 
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doneforlife

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Jul 18, 2023
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I don't like crowds. I have always actively tried to bypass anything and everything that is crowded.
 
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Neverfeltdeader

Neverfeltdeader

Can you hear me drift away?
Dec 12, 2021
132
I know what you mean. I have avpd, and always have panic attacks in any social situation with people I don't know.

Everyone seems to either be relaxed and happy, or at least able to fake it. Meanwhile I feel like I'm in a room with a lion that is about to eat me alive, and every muscle in my body is tensed, and I almost can't stop myself from running out of the room. Fun times.
Ugh, I know that feeling all too well. These days I seem to be the queen of Irish exits.
Yeah, I get very nervous in crowds that I need to interact with. That sounds like hell to me!
It's torture!

 
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