So today is finally my last day alive

[bad luck]

Did you take N or NS?

 

[Meditation guide]

Did you take N or NS?

he may not be able to answer in either case. edit: I see he took SN.

 

[bad luck]

he may not be able to answer in either case. edit: I see he took SN.

In message # 5 it said SN and in # 20 N. Going so comfortable I thought it was N. Rest in peace anyway

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Rest in peace,Me and my dog will see you in the next 5 years!

 

[Nightwillalwayswin]

Sorry for your suffering. May you rest in peace.

 

[yetme]

Hi
I've finally come to the end of my suffering from years of abuse leading to PTSD, I also have voices that do not give me a break from telling me I'm a burden to society, parents, NHS, telling me to go kill myself, go jump off a bridge, stab self in neck, and been very negative and torturing me constantly. There's also severe depression and anxiety too which has been kicking my arse for several months now despite asking for help from professionals.

Nobody can say that I haven't tried to get better, I've tried different types of therapy, different medications, worked with mental health services, rung helplines. Done volunteering, tried keeping busy, tried studying for a better future. Done it all and none of it has improved things.

I'm also done with living in constant physical pain, with no doctors or surgeons wanting to help. I can live with the pain it's the limitations to what I can and cannot do. I've had enough of been 28 in an old man's body.

I'm grateful for the people who have chatted to me here, talked to me whilst struggling with voices, stayed awake with me as I couldn't sleep. Thank you for making me feel less alone, less scared of the voices, flashbacks, panic attacks and just talking to me about general things.

Just to note for any prolifers lurking - this is fully my own decision, nobody has pushed me either way, they've spoke to me about everyday things like music,dogs,animals, drawings,PS4, Netflix and even coping strategies to get me through but there's only so long someone can live in pain, been tortured mentally and physically and I've tried all other options. Currently under crisis team who are aware I have plans to kill myself - I've been told that I have capacity and it is my decision
So stop targeting SS, target the mental health services in the UK who repeatedly let people down, or better yet set up something to help suicidal people.

Take good care everyone
TJ

Omg TJ((( I hope I get to say my goodbyes.. you are the nicest person Ive ever met on ss. Im so sorry that life turned out to be like this. Im gonna miss you! Safe travels!(

 

[Simba]

It's not fair that society has made him suffer i wish he could've stayed bit longer

 

[TJuk]

Update I somehow survived it was SN

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

Update I somehow survived it was SN

Wow! I hope you're fine. Where you saved? or you just woke up days later?

 

[Deathbydemo]

Update I somehow survived it was SN

Can I ask what happened?

I hope you are feeling okay.

 

[sunsetintehwoods]

Update I somehow survived it was SN

It only means it was not the time, but I hope you safe as possible.

I decided SN too, so I'm wondering - what went not as planned?

 

[bad luck]

Update I somehow survived it was SN

What symptoms did you have? Did you go to the ER? How much did you use?

 

[aminend]

Update I somehow survived it was SN

what happened?

 

[melissa286]

Wishing you a peaceful rest.

 

[TJuk]

Don't know had been abit out of it since.

They had changed my medication on lead up to this (I already had date set before the change of meds) I was taken to a and e due to been found.

Not sure if the meto interacted with meds I'm already on either

 

[aminend]

Don't know had been abit out of it since.

They had changed my medication on lead up to this (I already had date set before the change of meds) I was taken to a and e due to been found.

Not sure if the meto interacted with meds I'm already on either

so u didn't take SN at all?

 

[TJuk]

Yeah I did take SN was gross.

What I'm saying is, I took my prescribed medications still during fasting and didn't look up if was any interaction between them and meto.

I was found too early

 

[Deathbydemo]

Yeah I did take SN was gross.

What I'm saying is, I took my prescribed medications still during fasting and didn't look up if was any interaction between them and meto.

I was found too early

What symptoms did you experience before you were found? I am assuming you passed out?

I hope you are feeling okay. Naturally, we have so many questions but answer in your own time. Make yourself a priority right now.

 

[Quinlor]

Yeah I did take SN was gross.

What I'm saying is, I took my prescribed medications still during fasting and didn't look up if was any interaction between them and meto.

I was found too early

But what happened did you puked the SN?and If you intended to die why do you took your prescribed medications? it's like brushed your teeths before hang yorself (sorry about my dark humor).

 

[lofticries]

Was drowsiness the last thing you felt before passing out from SN. Or did you also feel your heart racing and have trouble breathing? Also if nobody found you for a longer period of time do you think you would have died?

 

[Deathbydemo]

Let's not bombard them with so many questions just yet. My main concern is your well-being right now, OP. Sincerely hoping you are okay.

 

[TJuk]

But what happened did you puked the SN?and If you intended to die why do you took your prescribed medications? it's like brushed your teeths before hang yorself (sorry about my dark humor).

I did puke, I took my prescribed medications because I live in constant physical pain which limits what I can do. So yeah I took it because I still had to get through the fasting time and then be physically able to sort out the SN.
In response to others questions il get back to you some other time when I've had some rest

 

[ayb]

you puked despite taking meto? How much did you take and when?

I did puke, I took my prescribed medications because I live in constant physical pain which limits what I can do. So yeah I took it because I still had to get through the fasting time and then be physically able to sort out the SN.
In response to others questions il get back to you some other time when I've had some rest

 

[TJuk]

you puked despite taking meto? How much did you take and when?

Unfortunately it can happen it's happened with others.

I believe I was found too early and that's why I survived. I'm still not upto answering all the questions, most of which are questions I've previously answered thoughout my post.

I'm sorry but I'm struggling alot with my physical and mental health at moment, which I had before my attempt I'm just having a flare up and have very little energy

 

[Carrotcake]

Unfortunately it can happen it's happened with others.

I believe I was found too early and that's why I survived. I'm still not upto answering all the questions, most of which are questions I've previously answered thoughout my post.

I'm sorry but I'm struggling alot with my physical and mental health at moment, which I had before my attempt I'm just having a flare up and have very little energy

You have already written extensively which I think has been interesting/helpful to many. Take your rest <3

 

[lofticries]

Your health> Our questions.

Please get some rest now. Sending you good vibes and e-hugs.

 

[orlandom]

How are you feeling?

 

[Octavina]

I hope you recover well in hospital or at home. Sadly for me the most painful part was being found early then Beng jabbed with needles for hours. I was put on oxygen and no damage to my organs luckily.
get well soon physically

 

[Phoenix]

I relate to all of your story and truly understand your pain.