
Nemaki Arber
Lost soul & chat lurker
- Mar 24, 2023
- 56
Falling asleep is already hard enough, my meds don't work anymore, the drugs don't work anymore, I always have this pit in my stomach every morning.
I'm tired, some days I seem to be feeling really well but those are far and few between, most of the time I'm in my bed wishing for my final days to arrive.
I don't think I can even wait for my friend's cancer to take her before I kill myself anymore, my soul is worn and ready to leave and do what it needs to do for the next life or eternity.
The only thing I know I'll be doing for sure if I die before my friend is I'll be there for her when her time comes, helping her transition into the after life.
I'm tired, some days I seem to be feeling really well but those are far and few between, most of the time I'm in my bed wishing for my final days to arrive.
I don't think I can even wait for my friend's cancer to take her before I kill myself anymore, my soul is worn and ready to leave and do what it needs to do for the next life or eternity.
The only thing I know I'll be doing for sure if I die before my friend is I'll be there for her when her time comes, helping her transition into the after life.