crybaby
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- Dec 4, 2019
- 95
I find someone who truly understands and loves me. Our meeting was due to a coincidence.He has many painful experiences like me But he is more optimistic than me, he always comforts me when I cry. I love him very much, and he loves me too. However, I have many unsolvable reasons that make me need to suicide in August. I told him last Thursday that I was going to commit suicide. I hope he understands me and stays with me until I die. He knew I was really in pain, so he didn't persuade me not to commit suicide.But he told me he couldn't accept it. He said he was afraid of losing me.Then we did not talk for several days. I sent him a message this morning and he said that if I really want to commit suicide, just don't contact him again. He said he didn't know how to face me, he didn't want to talk to me...He said I would hurt him very much.I am really sad. I just want him to send me a message and talk to me when I commit suicide, so that I can calm down, because I am really scared. It seems to be no way now, I can only die alone in the room.My relationship with him is also over...I feel very heartbroken and lonely. I still have to wait 18 days to commit suicide, which is too long for me.I am so sad I really hope I can die now:((((( I'm sorry, I'm not good at english