Do you have some sort of social anxiety? If not what's stopping you from breaking the repetitive cycle and finding new friends or joining sport clubs or similar activities where you can find likeminded people?
I met a few great individuals when I joined a football club few years back then a rock climbing club. I can't stand bars or clubs either alcohol and a noisy environment wasn't a remedy.
This is one brutal world buddy no one is going to help you but yourself by trying different allies.
I know you're right. My uni is split up into many smaller colleges, and so it's impossible to avoid bumping into people in these places. I had a really bad experience with bullying in my first term and it makes me not feel safe in any of the shared spaces in college.
It means I have to drag myself to uni wide societies which are good I suppose but I just have never clicked with anyone i've met there properly. I have a hard time connecting with other ppl, i'm too weird and obviously different.
Sorry I know you're trying to help and i'm just moaning. I appreciate it. I know it's all my own doing, but I really don't see a way out of this. Especially when again and again you think you've finally found someone and it just all turns into shit, you start to spot a pattern.