Help SN tonight without MCP?

[Valyrio9119]

I plan to ctb tonight with SN, but i got only suboptimal antiemetics (Promethazin, Diphenhydramin. Quetiapin).
I got enough benzos though,. The dosis will be 50g, a second 50g dosis is prepared.
Will i be able to hold it in, and if i trough up, will it work regardless?

Please give me your opinion on this

 

[Lyn]

In my opinion there is no need doubling the dose, because it can provoke even more nausea.

The recommended amount is already an overkill that suggests that even if you vomit, the lethal amount still stays in your body.
At least there are cases of people raw-dogging it successfully.

But it's all up to you.

I personally wouldn't lean too far from the protocol even if I didn't have all the auxiliar meds.

But it's your choice.

Sorry that you're considering this at all.

 

[Valyrio9119]

So you think it would be better to take 25g first, and eventually a second one later?
I want to fall unconcious as quick as possible....

Thank you for your nice words, for me it will be a relief. I literally got no other choice than ctb or suffer every day of the rest of my life.

Surprisingly, the mcp was the hardest one to get. So if i can do anyone a favor that looks for a reliable vendor pm me

 

[Lyn]

So you think it would be better to take 25g first, and eventually a second one later?
I want to fall unconcious as quick as possible....

Thank you for your nice words, for me it will be a relief. I literally got no other choice than ctb or suffer every day of the rest of my life.

Surprisingly, the mcp was the hardest one to get. So if i can do anyone a favor that looks for a reliable vendor pm me

I can only hope you are definitely sure about your decision. It's always sad for me. So I'm just sorry life has brought you here.

No judgment though, I'm in a similar position and I am planning to take 25 (35 max) and I also have no metos still.
I'm not sure I'll be able to down the second cup but I'll sure keep it by hand in case of vomit.

 

[Valyrio9119]

dou you got benzos? When do you plan ctb?

Why do you even consider suicide? Are you chronically ill or got other disabilities?
If it´s only your mind then don´t do it. There is a way out for the most one here i believe

 

[Lyn]

dou you got benzos? When do you plan ctb?

Why do you even consider suicide? Are you chronically ill or got other disabilities?
If it´s only your mind then don´t do it. There is a way out for the most one here i believe

It's a long story. Mental illness + being financially broke on the brink of becoming homeless, which would be death for me either way, if I put it short. It's not something impulsive, I've been living with this for at least half of my life.

And Yeah, I've got a bunch of benzos but still have doubts about the timing of taking them. Still exploring and testing.


And what are your reasons, if you don't mind me asking? No pressure.

 

[Valyrio9119]

I got stalked and harassed by a bunch of people in my enviroment. They slowly poisoned my drinks and food, and my physical condition got worse over 3 years know. It took me a long time to even figure it out... Also made some bad decisions that lead my life into a dead end. I fucked up so many opportunities that my life is beyond repair. This is my only way out.

financially problems can be solved, with the homelesness, i guess you life in USA? Aren´t there any welfare programs that prevent that from happening?
How old are you ?
Thank you for taking your time to talk to me, it means a lot for me right now
If it´s somehow helpful for the rest of us who consider SN, i can give updates how i feel through the process and post the symptoms i experience.
when you don´t hear anything more, i´m in a better place.

 

[Lyn]

I got stalked and harassed by a bunch of people in my enviroment. They slowly poisoned my drinks and food, and my physical condition got worse over 3 years know. It took me a long time to even figure it out... Also made some bad decisions that lead my life into a dead end. I fucked up so many opportunities that my life is beyond repair. This is my only way out.

financially problems can be solved, with the homelesness, i guess you life in USA? Aren´t there any welfare programs that prevent that from happening?
How old are you ?
Thank you for taking your time to talk to me, it means a lot for me right now
If it´s somehow helpful for the rest of us who consider SN, i can give updates how i feel through the process and post the symptoms i experience.
when you don´t hear anything more, i´m in a better place.

That sounds awful. Nobody should experience anything like this. But that's our world, unfortunately. I'm sorry.
I'm not saying I'm dying right now, I'm a kind of a person who would exhaust all options before coming to the final decision. But if/when it comes I'll be ready to leave.
I'm not from USA, In from one of the European countries.

I'm always up to have a conversation, do feel free to DM me if you'd like. I'm not too talkative, but sure can listen.

But no matter what you decide I wish you peace. Though I would definitely like for you to get better, it's your decision. You don't deserve such struggles. You seem to be a nice person as far as I can say after this brief conversation. Sending hugs.

 

[matt.7890]

Well it is not really a life in dignity being in a welfare house imo. What's the point even? For me it is inhumane and especially if someone has to spend there many years, like I cannot even imagine myself, being in psych ward couple of times, each around 1.5 month... hell on earth. That's why I am also planning my ctb in order not to allow for such a situation and being in a rush then which may result in failure.. anyways my fingers crossed - I know how cruel the life can get..

 

[Valyrio9119]

Welfare house, money, psych wart... This really doesn´t not that hard, it´s a perspective thing. A rich man, or even any other man that is seriously i´ll has only one wish, to get healthy. Your physical and mental well being is priceless and the only thing that really matters, it´s a ,matter of perspective.
I was in a psych wards a couple of times and had fun there, even made knew friends
You can still work on yourself and get much joy out of it, Try to get a job or make the best of your situation

 

[naookoo128]

The dosis will be 50g, a second 50g dosis is prepared.

25gm SN in 50 -100 ml of plain water is the ppeh standard upto 100kgs, 35grams SN for more than 100kgs.

 

[Valyrio9119]

fckt up yesterday, benzos was too strong and i tripping literally on overy obstacle amd eventually fell to sleep without taking the SN.....
This time has to be working
Was when in drunk the <SN, more water after or nothing?

 

[Lyn]

fckt up yesterday, benzos was too strong and i tripping literally on overy obstacle amd eventually fell to sleep without taking the SN.....
This time has to be working
Was when in drunk the <SN, more water after or nothing?

How much benzos did you take? And what time did it take to make you fall asleep?
Just wondering.

 

[Alexandra0]

fckt up yesterday, benzos was too strong and i tripping literally on overy obstacle amd eventually fell to sleep without taking the SN.....
This time has to be working
Was when in drunk the <SN, more water after or nothing?

You don't need to drink water after SN. There should be as little liquid in the stomach as possible. Good luck to you

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