Hey guys. I wanted to post an update. @CloseFriendofCamus was talking to me in chat while he drank SN. It hasn't been long enough yet to know if he was successful, but I feel drained and want to post sooner rather than later so I can finish today and shut down my brain. He was adamant that he'd return if he failed. I hope he's feeling better right now, no matter the outcome. If he returns, I'll delete this.
He was in Russia, so I'm going to do times based off of Moscow's timezone to try keep it simple. I don't actually know if he was in Moscow specifically but yeah.
Around 7:30am he drank a glass of 25g SN/50ml water. He vomited within three minutes. He then drank a second glass, and threw up again in five minutes. I do not know how much he vomited. His last message to me was at 7:41am saying he'd puked the second time. He did not message me again (it's been nearly two hours). I know he had a third backup glass but I don't know if he took it.
He took AE and antacid prior. He said he ate at 10pm the night before, then "stayed up till 2am to digest stuff". Then he drank 30mg of meto at 6:22am. At 6:53am he told me he drank 25ml of maalox, which was "minty and nice". Then he drank the SN at 7:30am which he descibed as "very salty but OK".
He sent me three photos of his set up, which includes his vomiting tub, "measuring stuffie thingy" and 200g SN bag plus scales. I'm posting them.
I don't want to make this post about myself, but I do want to reassure you guys here who cared for him that I stayed with him for every second of it once I realised he was CTB in an hour. I asked him a few times what i could say that would make him feel less nervous and he asked me to tell him my hobbies, so I did and reassured him multiple times that if he chose to back out and choose life, I'd support him 100%, as well as if he chose to drink. Everything was his choice and I just wanted him to feel better. I assured him multiple times that even though he was a stranger, I cared for him and I didn't want him to feel alone. Again, not trying to make this about myself - just want to let you guys know that he felt reassured and appreciated in his last moments and I made sure it was specific stuff I was saying and not vague pleasantries.
He was overall anxious and sad but he was very, very adamant that this was what he wanted. I did make it clear that all I cared about was him feeling better, whether that be through living or death. He wasn't pressured into either decision. He was comfortable with his choice.
I'm sad I'll never know his name but I'm so grateful I got to experience the mind of such a beautiful person, even if it was for only an hour. I've included a screenshot of his explanation of his profile photo because I thought it was beautiful.