Imissyoumydarling
a very majestic chicken cat
- May 7, 2022
- 107
There's one last thing I should mention, and I'm sorry for being an idiot and not thinking of this sooner.
This screenshot was his last ever message to me. Notably, his last line was "I feel bad".
Yesterday when this all went down, I assumed he meant "I feel bad [emotionally, because I puked a second time and I feel like a failure because I've been anxious about this]" as it seemed to fit in the context of other stuff we'd been saying. Also while English was his second language (I think), he was still very fluent and I figured he would have just said "I feel sick" if he felt sick. That's why I didn't post this sooner - I thought it was an emotional/insecurity thing and I wanted to respect him by not announcing it to everyone since I thought he wouldn't want to come off that way and I didn't want those last words to define him.
Waking up today, I realise now that it's ambigious. I'm sorry, it seems so obvious now. There's a good chance he actually meant he felt discomfort/pain from the SN. I'm still not sure if he did or not, since his English was good enough to have been more precise... but who gives a fuck about being precise when they're in his shoes? I shouldn't read too much into exact phrasing. What matters is that he said it.
All we know for sure is he stopped responding eleven minutes after taking the first drink, and since he had two glasses it seemed more potent and fast acting than some of the other lengthier experiences here. So I wouldn't be surprised is the effects hit him harder despite the puking.
I think for the sake of full disclosure, so that all users here know what they're getting into since SN is an uncomfortable experience despite the claims of it being peaceful, I should let you guys know this. I still don't know how to interpret "I feel bad" since I don't know if it was emotional, physical, or both, but I think everyone here should still be warned and they can make up their own minds.
This screenshot was his last ever message to me. Notably, his last line was "I feel bad".
Yesterday when this all went down, I assumed he meant "I feel bad [emotionally, because I puked a second time and I feel like a failure because I've been anxious about this]" as it seemed to fit in the context of other stuff we'd been saying. Also while English was his second language (I think), he was still very fluent and I figured he would have just said "I feel sick" if he felt sick. That's why I didn't post this sooner - I thought it was an emotional/insecurity thing and I wanted to respect him by not announcing it to everyone since I thought he wouldn't want to come off that way and I didn't want those last words to define him.
Waking up today, I realise now that it's ambigious. I'm sorry, it seems so obvious now. There's a good chance he actually meant he felt discomfort/pain from the SN. I'm still not sure if he did or not, since his English was good enough to have been more precise... but who gives a fuck about being precise when they're in his shoes? I shouldn't read too much into exact phrasing. What matters is that he said it.
All we know for sure is he stopped responding eleven minutes after taking the first drink, and since he had two glasses it seemed more potent and fast acting than some of the other lengthier experiences here. So I wouldn't be surprised is the effects hit him harder despite the puking.
I think for the sake of full disclosure, so that all users here know what they're getting into since SN is an uncomfortable experience despite the claims of it being peaceful, I should let you guys know this. I still don't know how to interpret "I feel bad" since I don't know if it was emotional, physical, or both, but I think everyone here should still be warned and they can make up their own minds.
