Venting Sn- sorry im back. Sucks to be here

[Stevenstevensteven]

I have taken refuse on this forum again. Thinking of taking sn tonight. I can't get a gun, and I failed once at helium+od on pills. Im currently fasting right now. Thinking of taking Zofran at 9pm CT.
Prilosec at 9 pm ct
Tylenol at 9 pm ct

9:30ct
Taking sn capsules 25grams about 30 pills
Oragel on tongue at 940
Mixing 25g sn in water @940
Drinking sn when dissolved and if I vomit.

When I vomit I do not have enough sn if I vomit twice. But my hope is the capsules will devolve + the sn drink will do its job. I cannot live another day. I face another day. I miss my ex fiance

I'm afraid my mom who is staying with me will call 911. My mom is staying with for support but I can't take this.

I plan on doing it at night, around bed time. Taking a shower to mask the noise of vomit. Hopefully I can shut off water before I pass out. Moment I become dizzy water is going off.

I feel bad for devaluing my home. Just purchased it a month ago. Feel bad for leaving my two beautiful kids. I can't sacrifice anymore living another day when I'm in so much pain.


. I have a note ready on my phone and just trying to get through the day and give family a happy memory before I pass tomorrow. I hope I fucken succeed at this shit. Life will get seriously worse if I survive.
I cant go to BH at hospital again. Thats where I met the ex fiance. Im done. Thanks for reading.

 

[Silver]

Some people have discussed or used putting SN into capsules. This only removes the point of the salty taste in your mouth. People have still been sick after taking capsules as the human body will still react to poisoning regardless of if it is in water or capsules. There is also the potential for the SN to be slowly released into your system which could extend the time to death significantly.

 

[greebo6]

I hope it works out for you. Good luck.

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

I hope it works out for you. Good luck.

Thank you

 

[woxihuanni]

I am sorry it came to this. Sounds risky but I don't know what to say.

 

[emphasis]

That's a lot of pills to try and get down. Survival instinct or the SN might kick in before you can finish them. I'd consider trying to get it down in fluid first if you can.

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

That's a lot of pills to try and get down. Survival instinct or the SN might kick in before you can finish them. I'd consider trying to get it down in fluid first if you can.

I made the pills already so I feel stubborn and want to try it. But I'm considering Keeping It Simple Stupid, and just preparing two glasses. I think with oragel it should numb tast buds a bit to make it easier to go down anyway
Idk yet. I still have 8 hours to decide

 

[thisisstupid]

I have taken refuse on this forum again. Thinking of taking sn tonight. I can't get a gun, and I failed once at helium+od on pills. Im currently fasting right now. Thinking of taking Zofran at 9pm CT.
Prilosec at 9 pm ct
Tylenol at 9 pm ct

9:30ct
Taking sn capsules 25grams about 30 pills
Oragel on tongue at 940
Mixing 25g sn in water @940
Drinking sn when dissolved and if I vomit.

When I vomit I do not have enough sn if I vomit twice. But my hope is the capsules will devolve + the sn drink will do its job. I cannot live another day. I face another day. I miss my ex fiance

I'm afraid my mom who is staying with me will call 911. My mom is staying with for support but I can't take this.

I plan on doing it at night, around bed time. Taking a shower to mask the noise of vomit. Hopefully I can shut off water before I pass out. Moment I become dizzy water is going off.

I feel bad for devaluing my home. Just purchased it a month ago. Feel bad for leaving my two beautiful kids. I can't sacrifice anymore living another day when I'm in so much pain.


. I have a note ready on my phone and just trying to get through the day and give family a happy memory before I pass tomorrow. I hope I fucken succeed at this shit. Life will get seriously worse if I survive.
I cant go to BH at hospital again. Thats where I met the ex fiance. Im done. Thanks for reading.

Rip i hope that once you have left you find peace and sleep peacefully

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

Rip i hope that once you have left you find peace and sleep peacefully

I really hope so too

 

[TripleA]

Wish you eternal peace

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

Wish you eternal peace

Thank you

 

[StuFin]

I've bought some after 8 mint chocolates.

First I love them, they taste great, and second the taste is so strong I plan on chewing one or 2 up and getting the taste into the back of my throat to cover the SN taste (will obviously spit them out, it's just the taste I'm after), then after drinking SN will chew some more up to cover it even more before spitting them out.

Then have a cigarette and lie back and wait for the inevitable.

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

I've bought some after 8 mint chocolates.

First I love them, they taste great, and second the taste is so strong I plan on chewing one or 2 up and getting the taste into the back of my throat to cover the SN taste (will obviously spit them out, it's just the taste I'm after), then after drinking SN will chew some more up to cover it even more before spitting them out.

Then have a cigarette and lie back and wait for the inevitable.

I like that idea, I will use it. Thank you

 

[StuFin]

I'll be using it tomorrow or by Tuesday at the latest.

I'm fed up and ready to leave.

 

[opiatedreamz]

I wish you well on your journey. Good luck.

 

[Meditation guide]

I wish you peace and an easy journey.
(Please let us know how it goes for you if possible, thank you. I will be here with tears in my eyes.)

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

I wish you peace and an easy journey.
(Please let us know how it goes for you if possible, thank you. I will be here with tears in my eyes.)

I will certainly do so. Im really worried im going to be saved. I do t want to be saved.

 

[Meditation guide]

I will certainly do so. Im really worried im going to be saved. I do t want to be saved.

Oh? No privacy. I will be here with baited breath.

 

[itachi of death]

I hope you find your peace in whatever you decide to do,were here for you.good luck

 

[Breadbfra]

I hope it works mate. Don't push yourself. Sending hugs

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

Update: I have more sn that came in the mail. Im good to go. I also convinced my mother to watch my kids tonight so I can go party and not to expect me back. I got a hotel, and plan to relax. Take my time and be at peace. No worrying. I have plenty of SN. I have plenty of time 12 hours. I think this is it folks. Im kinda excited.

I'll update my plan in a couple hours, if any of you are interested.

Ps. Thank you for all the best wishes, it really does mean alot that im not alone and I can make my own decision. Love you all! Thank you

 

[rt1989526]

Update: I have more sn that came in the mail. Im good to go. I also convinced my mother to watch my kids tonight so I can go party and not to expect me back. I got a hotel, and plan to relax. Take my time and be at peace. No worrying. I have plenty of SN. I have plenty of time 12 hours. I think this is it folks. Im kinda excited.

I'll update my plan in a couple hours, if any of you are interested.

Ps. Thank you for all the best wishes, it really does mean alot that im not alone and I can make my own decision. Love you all! Thank you

Best of luck to you friend. I am also considering a hotel for my location. I am very paranoid and worried about being found too early.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Wishing you a quick and peaceful journey :)

 

[Huntfish34]

Prayers and blessings sent you're way. Hope it all works out ,. With whatever it is that may happen. Godspeed.

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

I checked in the hotel
I just took 3 500mg Tylenol
4 prilosec otc
3 Zofran

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I checked in the hotel
I just took 3 500mg Tylenol
4 prilosec otc
3 Zofran

How are you feeling?

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

I just took the 33 capsules
I feel weirdly calm
I feel weirdly calm
Its 930.
I'm listening to a Playlist

 

[Meditation guide]

I just took the 33 capsules

I'm here.

 

[Stevenstevensteven]

I bought a neck messages when I went out and its rubbing my back. With some heat. Feels pretty nice.

I'm here.

Thank you

I think ill take the drink in 30 minutes, I said fuck it and took the capsules first because I wanted to see what happens

 

[Meditation guide]

Nothing yet?