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i̶t̶'̶s̶ ̶n̶i̶c̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶b̶e̶ ̶b̶a̶c̶k̶.̶
Apr 15, 2024
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I work in child welfare & try to have a normal life, despite everything I have gone through my entire life. I have tried to be normal, between work and family and friends and daily life and my grief. I have never felt normal or like I belonged. It has been over 13+ years. I've tried everything they say. I don't belong and every day is pain and a reminder. I have had SN hidden in my possession for about year and a half. I may need to use some alcohol to ignore others and focus on my emotions. I know this is a struggle with SN; but working with what I am; please. I can't go on like this. I have everything I need to do it aside from just listening to myself. Motivation, please. Can I make this work? I tell myself Monday; but I'm scared I'll talk myself out of it again and regret it for the millionth time. The only thing that's kept me from committing is others: I'm sick of spending my entire life based on other people. When is it my turn?
 
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absolute failure

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Jan 19, 2026
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If you drink SN it is highly recommended to fast and consume it on an empty stomach, this has a valid reason. The absorption of the sn into the bloodstream would otherwise be slowed down and you
may survive because it mixed enough with a different liquid. You want SN to act quickly after consuming it and together with alcohol you will 100% puke it out even with Antiemetics. Reconsider this approach please
 
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dirkw83

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Mar 4, 2026
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You shouldn't involve extra things like alcohol and whatever kind of drugs etc, that's how you become part of the 10% failure rate.
 
lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Student
Jan 11, 2026
185
I was thinking about wine like one blogger did on camera. He puked that wine out. I think an empty stomach could be better since nothing to puke out. There is benzocaine that someone tried. It is mixed with ethanol (great option then). There are threads about it here.
 
Enga

Enga

Member
May 27, 2024
37
Honestly, I can't count how many times I was drunk and made my SN drink ready. But everytime I thought to myself, that that's just hours of pain ahead. Protocol is absolute. You just shouldn't take it when you are drunk. If you aren't ready to tolerate all what's coming. And I think most people aren't. I am not for certain. You just won't lose consciousness and get to experience slow decline.
 
Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
329
You shouldn't involve extra things like alcohol and whatever kind of drugs etc, that's how you become part of the 10% failure rate.
And where did you get this info on a 10% failure rate?
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
863
Mixing alcohol and SN is a bad idea. SN on its own will make you nauseated and adding alcohol to the mix is adding another substance that will make you vomit even more. You will vomit more because of the added stomach irritant - alcohol. With the added alcohol you risk either a failed attempt (too much SN vomited) or a prolonged death.

There was a video of Joe Winko who ctb via SN, but he had too much wine before drinking his SN. He vomited a lot because of wine and it took him 30 minutes to lose his consciousness instead of 12-15. He still died, but it was prolonged.
 
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Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
329
30 minutes to lose his consciousness instead of 12-15.
You don't exactly know that, though. Just because someone appears to be awake doesn't mean they are mentally there. You get confused shortly after taking SN. Shortly after I took sn, while I appeared to be awake, I was confused and not there
 
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dirkw83

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Mar 4, 2026
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And where did you get this info on a 10% failure rate?

"44/53 of those that took it on purpose died (89% of men died, 67% of women, but the sample size for women was smaller)"
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
863
You don't exactly know that, though. Just because someone appears to be awake doesn't mean they are mentally there. You get confused shortly after taking SN. Shortly after I took sn, while I appeared to be awake, I was confused and not there
You are saying that even though Joe Winko's eyes were open wide, he wasn't completely conscious? He had his eyes open very wide and stared at the ceiling in the video.
 
Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
329
You are saying that even though Joe Winko's eyes were open wide, he wasn't completely conscious? He had his eyes open very wide and stared at the ceiling in the video.
Yep. My eyes were open wide lmfao, was I there? no. SN stops oxygen from reaching the brain. If you don't have oxygen to the brain, you get confused. I mean, you use AI to get answers for things, so this doesn't surprise me.

"44/53 of those that took it on purpose died (89% of men died, 67% of women, but the sample size for women was smaller)"
It's a study that, while yes does include a significant sample size, does not account for deaths since then, which may alter the 10% failure rate. There is no comprehensive study on what the failure rate is for attempts since studies don't focus on that at all, none that exist anyway
 
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Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
863
Yep. My eyes were open wide lmfao, was I there? no. SN stops oxygen from reaching the brain. If you don't have oxygen to the brain, you get confused. I mean, you use AI to get answers for things, so this doesn't surprise me.

It's a study that, while yes does include a significant sample size, does not account for deaths since then, which may alter the 10% failure rate. There is no comprehensive study on what the failure rate is for attempts since studies don't focus on that at all, none that exist anyway
Ai has mentioned once the exact thing you said (about drifting away while your eyes are still opened), but back then I found it hard to believe.
I know that you had a first-hand experience with SN ingestion, so it's much more believable when this info is coming from a person who actually lived thru it, than to believe in some soulless computer spewing Ai-slop
 
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