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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
Another week closer to my chosen date now. I'm starting to feel quite impatient. Given the chance I would go through with it right now, but I can't change the current circumstances. Just to help deal with this impatience, I've tried to piece together the protocol I'll be using. I will hopefully be able to get ahold of Propranolol, but it's not a guarantee. I've read that this part is a luxury, so it doesn't worry me too much.

If someone could let me know how this looks, I'd be hugely grateful!!

  • 3pm — start solids fast (9 hours)
  • 10pm — start liquids fast (2 hours)
  • 11pm — paracetamol (2x500mg)
  • 11:20pm — metoclopramide (3x10mg)
  • 11:40pm — prepare 25mg SN + 50ml water (x3)
  • Midnight: take first dose (take second dose if vomitting occurs early; same for third dose)
  • Hotel check-out is 11am, so I will need to achieve my goal prior to that

The time I start is flexible. I have midnight in mind as if anyone is going to contact me (I'll be in a hotel on my own, so friends or family may check in), I can respond to them so they don't immediately worry. I'd rather that than have them be worried all night trying to reach me.

I'm not worried about the fasting. Due to recent incidents I haven't been able to eat much anyway. However, I don't want to overdo it as I've heard this can be counter-productive.

I was considering adding sleeping tablets to this mix, but I don't want too many meds fighting with each other, and OTC sleeping pills don't seem to affect me anyway.

Any feedback on this? Thanks in advance!!
 
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Saponification

Saponification

A piece of nothing
Jun 27, 2024
175
Looks good. Pretty similar to what I've been planning.

About the fasting, is it true that too much can be counter-productive? I was planning to fast for like 24 hours just to be safe, lol.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
Looks good. Pretty similar to what I've been planning.

About the fasting, is it true that too much can be counter-productive? I was planning to fast for like 24 hours just to be safe, lol.
I've seen arguments on both sides, so I'm really not sure! I think I'll try to go for at least 10 hours, but I'll try and look around more
 
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Chocoflo

Chocoflo

Member
Mar 22, 2025
19
Une semaine de plus avant la date prévue. Je commence à être assez impatient. Si j'en avais l'occasion, je le ferais tout de suite, mais je ne peux rien changer aux circonstances actuelles. Pour calmer mon impatience, j'ai essayé de mettre au point le protocole que je vais suivre. J'espère pouvoir me procurer du propranolol, mais ce n'est pas garanti. J'ai lu que c'était un luxe, donc ça ne m'inquiète pas trop.

Si quelqu'un pouvait me dire à quoi cela ressemble, je lui en serais extrêmement reconnaissant !!

  • 15h00 — commencer le jeûne solide (9 heures)
  • 22h00 — commencer à boire rapidement des liquides (2 heures)
  • 23h — paracétamol (2x500mg)
  • 23h20 — métoclopramide (3x10mg)
  • 23h40 — préparer 25 mg de SN + 50 ml d'eau (x3)
  • Minuit : prendre la première dose (prendre la deuxième dose si les vomissements surviennent tôt ; idem pour la troisième dose)
  • Le départ de l'hôtel est à 11 heures, je devrai donc atteindre mon objectif avant cette date.

L'heure à laquelle je commence est flexible. Je prévois minuit, car si quelqu'un me contacte (je serai seul à l'hôtel, donc des amis ou de la famille pourraient arriver), je peux lui répondre sans qu'il s'inquiète immédiatement. Je préfère ça plutôt que de le voir s'inquiéter toute la nuit à essayer de me joindre.

Je ne m'inquiète pas pour le jeûne. Suite à des incidents récents, je n'ai pas pu manger beaucoup de toute façon. Cependant, je ne veux pas en faire trop, car j'ai entendu dire que cela pouvait être contre-productif.

J'envisageais d'ajouter des somnifères à ce mélange, mais je ne veux pas que trop de médicaments se battent les uns avec les autres, et les somnifères en vente libre ne semblent pas m'affecter de toute façon.

Des commentaires à ce sujet ? Merci d'avance !
Bonjour, j'habite en France et souhaite me procurer le SN, pouvez-vous m'indiquer des lieux ou des sites fiables? Merci.
 
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StrugglingSienna

Suicidal Trans Girl
Mar 16, 2025
181
You look all set to me. Personally I would book my hotel room for an extra day just to remove my anxiety over the (very small) chance that I fail and I have to get my heavily drugged ass up, but I don't know what your financial situation is or what your thinking is.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
Bonjour, j'habite en France et souhaite me procurer le SN, pouvez-vous m'indiquer des lieux ou des sites fiables? Merci.
J'ai acheté mon SN sur DMC. Si vous cherchez des autres fils ici, vous trouverez des indices plus clairs
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,196
only comment would be, as far as I know, the solids fast should be 12 hours (obviously unless something impedes you from doing so) otherwise everything looks solid! I agree with the extra hotel day.

make sure to leave a note somewhere before you're visible so you don't traumatize the housekeepers. simple like, body inside call 911.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
only comment would be, as far as I know, the solids fast should be 12 hours (obviously unless something impedes you from doing so) otherwise everything looks solid! I agree with the extra hotel day.

make sure to leave a note somewhere before you're visible so you don't traumatize the housekeepers. simple like, body inside call 911.
Yeah, I already planned to leave a note somewhere in the entryway to warn whoever comes into the room.

I don't have much of an appetite these days anyway, so I'll likely not eat from the moment I wake up that morning. 12 hours fast is a breeze for me haha

As for the extra day, I don't think that's going to be possible. I may just have to take the SN earlier so that if it does fail I have longer to recover.
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,196
if your purity and protocol are on point, you should be good to go, in theory. i'm sure you've thought of this but make sure to have tv etc to cover any noise. if the fast timing etc allows you to take it sooner, that might be a good idea. 💕💕💕💕💕💕
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
if your purity and protocol are on point, you should be good to go, in theory. i'm sure you've thought of this but make sure to have tv etc to cover any noise. if the fast timing etc allows you to take it sooner, that might be a good idea. 💕💕💕💕💕💕
The only reason I was planning on taking it so late is just in case any friends or family contact me - if I weren't to reply it would just cause worry. I wouldn't want them to be up all night. I guess in the grand scheme of things it wouldn't change the outcome, but it would be a small mercy.

And yeah, I plan on having the TV on plus music. Not loud enough to make people complain, but enough to cover any of the funky sounds I might make :ahhha:
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,196
The only reason I was planning on taking it so late is just in case any friends or family contact me - if I weren't to reply it would just cause worry. I wouldn't want them to be up all night. I guess in the grand scheme of things it wouldn't change the outcome, but it would be a small mercy.

And yeah, I plan on having the TV on plus music. Not loud enough to make people complain, but enough to cover any of the funky sounds I might make :ahhha:
you could tell them you're headed to bed early to try to mitigate that. just spitballing.
 
Chocoflo

Chocoflo

Member
Mar 22, 2025
19
J'ai acheté mon SN sur DMC. Si vous cherchez des autres fils ici, vous trouverez des indices plus clairs
Je vous remercie pour votre réponse mais pouvez-vous préciser le site car en tapant DMC sur Google, cela est hors sujet. Par ailleurs, je ne suis pas sûre de comprendre votre 2nd phrase "Si vous cherchez des autres fils ici, vous trouverez des indices plus clairs". Si cela signifie, que je peux trouver des adresses pour me procurer le SN dans des fils de discussion, j'ai essayé mais comme je n'ai pas la rubrique "Recherche" (indisponible pour les nouveaux membres), je n'ai rien trouvé.
 
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Swiss.la

Member
Mar 18, 2025
26
Je vous remercie pour votre réponse mais pouvez-vous préciser le site car en tapant DMC sur Google, cela est hors sujet. Par ailleurs, je ne suis pas sûre de comprendre votre 2nd phrase "Si vous cherchez des autres fils ici, vous trouverez des indices plus clairs". Si cela signifie, que je peux trouver des adresses pour me procurer le SN dans des fils de discussion, j'ai essayé mais comme je n'ai pas la rubrique "Recherche" (indisponible pour les nouveaux membres), je n'ai rien trouvé.
utilisez Yandex pour trouver DMC mais je voudrais partager le site est bloqué, ils travaillent sur un nouveau, vous devez donc être patient
 
Chocoflo

Chocoflo

Member
Mar 22, 2025
19
utilisez Yandex pour trouver DMC mais je voudrais partager le site est bloqué, ils travaillent sur un nouveau, vous devez donc être patient
Merci de m'avoir confirmé le moteur de recherche. Donc c'est le site inaccessible qui indique le message "la boutique est bloquée. ..." lorsque l'on clique dessus?
 

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