what's the worst that can happen? I want to ctb anyway.
As hard as it is, and as much as it sucks, you cannot ask someone to complete your ctb for you.
It won't happen no matter who you ask - the authorities would take away your freedom, a private person would abuse your desperation for their own gain.
Even if a person was willing to murder a stranger for no reason (consider: extreme risk, also the person'd have to be horribly-minded to even be capable of doing that), they'd very much be willing to exploit the victim, too.
Losing more control over your situation won't help you.
Please reconsider, and think of the incentives that could
realistically be at play.
Wishing you safety.