SN in a few hours....

[LongLostNoHope]

I wish I had access to N and could guarantee a peaceful exit....but I'm forced to try with SN. I am very worried about gagging it up, even with the Meto, as the taste is horrible from what I hear. I'll use a peppermint before and after and pray I can keep it down long enough to work. Most likely vomiting will occur since it's a poison. But I am alone and have rear that even with vomiting CTB is likely to occur? Praying for very little pain and the regimen to work!! Any advice or thoughts would be greatly appreciated!

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

how are you? what are you doing right now?

 

[LongLostNoHope]

how are you? what are you doing right now?

Just sitting on my bed....nothing makes me happy in life anymore

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

i see. sounds like you are really worried about gagging or vomiting. do you have a phobia?

 

[LongLostNoHope]

i see. sounds like you are really worried about gagging or vomiting. do you have a phobia?

I just am sensitive to bad tastes. Even if I manage to get it down most people do vomit still. Hopefully the antiemetic helps some. If I vomit it better still work to CTB because I'm not calling paramedics

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

its gonna be gross. that is just part of it. what time is it where you are?

 

[LongLostNoHope]

Almost 9pm here. I know it will be gross....ugh!

 

[Nymph]

Sorry that you've come to this point:( whatever you decide to do, I hope it's painless

 

[LongLostNoHope]

Sorry that you've come to this point:( whatever you decide to do, I hope it's painless

Thank you. I am so alone and scared

 

[Gnip]

Peace

 

[skinnystudent]

Good night

 

[Nymph]

If you're really scared then don't force it, I'm sure there's gonna be more opportunities..you really have to be ready and 100% for this kind of stuff

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

Thank you. I am so alone and scared

i am going to pm you. it's going to be ok. hang on...

 

[LongLostNoHope]

If you're really scared then don't force it, I'm sure there's gonna be more opportunities..you really have to be ready and 100% for this kind of stuff

This is the only method I have access to and would be able to overcome the SI...I wish I had N or a gun. I'd never be able to jump or hang myself

 

[Salvation_]

I imagine it will be uncomfortable but not too painful. I'm sorry hat it's come down to this, brother, but I wish you the best in your plans. And even if you say you are alone, you still have us to talk to. Don't be afraid to speak with any of us

 

[Nymph]

Overcoming SI can be hard, don't be too hard on yourself. It's okay if today isn't the day

 

[LongLostNoHope]

I'm more worried about throwing up and the repercussions of a failed attempt. I NEED this to work so bad

 

[Nymph]

Throwing up is very possible even with antiemetics. Just make sure you have another (extra) drink ready and it should be fine:)

 

[LongLostNoHope]

Throwing up is very possible even with antiemetics. Just make sure you have another (extra) drink ready and it should be fine:)

Won't I throw up a second time? How will I know if enough got in my blood? I'm worried about getting some SN in me, but throwing up enough so I won't pass out and die. I don't want to call the paramedics, but don't want long term horrible health repercussions. I already have many chronic health issues

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

i am going to pm you. it's going to be ok. hang on...

i don't know what is happening w the chat function so i can talk to you here or you can pm me if you like. whatever works best for you. you are not alone.

 

[Nymph]

Won't I throw up a second time? How will I know if enough got in my blood? I'm worried about getting some SN in me, but throwing up enough so I won't pass out and die. I don't want to call the paramedics, but don't want long term horrible health repercussions. I already have many chronic health issues

If you throw up the first time make sure to wait a few minutes and calm down for a bit..when you feel a bit better and ready to drink more then take the second drink. But anyways, when you take the drink, no matter if it's the first one or second one- try to go to sleep immediately. Going to sleep after drinking is the most important part because you want to be unconscious for the painful part

 

[LongLostNoHope]

I will take my propanalol soon and 1.5mg of Klonopin to help with anxiety/sleep. Also have the acetaminophen, Tagamet, and more meto
I'm 150 pounds so was gonna do 20g of SN in like 50 to 60ml of luke warm tap water
I don't think I'd be able to sleep until unconsciousness kicks in. Hopefully fairly quickly! Best case scenario would be not throwing up, but I am doubtful of that. If I throw up is it still likely to succeed?

 

[Gnip]

Klonopin peaks in effectiveness four hours after being taken, where Xanax kicks in almost instantly. Klonopin is far more powerful, and the more anxious one is, the more powerfully the Klonopin can counteract that.

 

[justanotherstar]

It's very individual, many people throw up without AE but there im have also been people who haven't taken AE and not thrown up. Many people prepare a second glass and I don't know of any reports of anyone's surviving a second glass. Wishing you peace

 

[LongLostNoHope]

Klonopin peaks in effectiveness four hours after being taken, where Xanax kicks in almost instantly. Klonopin is far more powerful, and the more anxious one is, the more powerfully the Klonopin can counteract that.

I'll take the klonopin now

 

[Brackenshire]

A calm heart and a peaceful journey friend if you decide to stay welcome home

 

[LongLostNoHope]

I took the Klonopin and propranolol. Ibuprofen in half an hour or so. I REALLY hope this works

 

[Spitfire]

I will take my propanalol soon and 1.5mg of Klonopin to help with anxiety/sleep. Also have the acetaminophen, Tagamet, and more meto
I'm 150 pounds so was gonna do 20g of SN in like 50 to 60ml of luke warm tap water
I don't think I'd be able to sleep until unconsciousness kicks in. Hopefully fairly quickly! Best case scenario would be not throwing up, but I am doubtful of that. If I throw up is it still likely to succeed?

I think it is very likely to succeed.

It might not be as bad as you think with the taste. By the time you are nauseated to vomit it should be absorbed.

 

[LongLostNoHope]

I think it is very likely to succeed.

It might not be as bad as you think with the taste. By the time you are nauseated to vomit it should be absorbed.

Let's pray it gets absorbed quickly and I dont vomit right away. I did the Meto regimen and will take 30mg half an hour before the SN
almost time for the acetaminophen. Maybe in 15 minutes
it's getting closer! So unreal

 

[Meretlein]

I hope you find peace.