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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
I got the sn mixed inside a glass bottle with what I believe are around 50ml of water. the crystals have dissolved on the water. HOLY FUCK THIS SHIT SMELLS STRAIGHT UP LIKE BLEACH

I'm scared as fucking hell rn. But also excited. It's morbid I know.

link to the song I'm listening on loop.

 
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EternalDestiny

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May 26, 2025
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Wishing you the best
 
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Mooncry

Mooncry

delulu girlfailure
Sep 11, 2024
392
Strange that yours smells like bleach. Mine didn't smell like anything, just very salty. In any case, I hope everything works out for you the way you want it to. 🤍
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I hope you find peace.
 
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onmywaytothebusstop

onmywaytothebusstop

~ Transgirl looking for eternal tranquility ~
Feb 9, 2025
235
I have no need to bet on your life.

The smell is horrible. I weighed mine a while ago and it's not odourless like some people claim.

Not sure where this thread is going to but sending hugs your way and hoping you're satisfied with whatever happens next.

if you need a talk, don't hesitate to jump into the chat.

if you decide to take the path of relief, godspeed!
 
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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
Strange that yours smells like bleach. Mine didn't smell like anything, just very salty. In any case, I hope everything works out for you the way you want it to. 🤍
Did you mix it in water tho? Mine is already dissolved in water. I closed the bottle to stir it and just now unscrewed the cap and smelled it out of curiosity. It's quite a distinctive smell
 
Mooncry

Mooncry

delulu girlfailure
Sep 11, 2024
392
Did you mix it in water tho? Mine is already dissolved in water. I closed the bottle to stir it and just now unscrewed the cap and smelled it out of curiosity. It's quite a distinctive smell
Yep, mixed in water. I just had mine in a little cup. I smelled it multiple times and it never had a smell. But I know it was SN because I got it from DMC and it did have the distinctive slightly sweet taste.
 
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onmywaytothebusstop

~ Transgirl looking for eternal tranquility ~
Feb 9, 2025
235
Did you mix it in water tho? Mine is already dissolved in water. I closed the bottle to stir it and just now unscrewed the cap and smelled it out of curiosity. It's quite a distinctive smell
If it's warm where you're at or was able to warm up a bit , it's possible that it decomposes a bit giving of a smell like bleach or if the sollution is slightly acidic as well.
Yep, mixed in water. I just had mine in a little cup. I smelled it multiple times and it never had a smell. But I know it was SN because I got it from DMC and it did have the distinctive slightly sweet taste.
Isn't it supposed to be extremely salty? 😬
 
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pleasexbexover

certain. it's time to go.
Feb 26, 2025
91
i hope you get what you want, whatever that may be <3 edit: that song is very nice
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Sorry that it's come to this for you. Whatever you decide, I hope you find calm within. Sending love your way, and wish you only the best wherever the journey leads.
 
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meow!
Apr 3, 2025
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safe travels, @moonflow3r. hope it's peaceful for you. :)
 
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moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
Only managed to gulp down s couple sips of it. This is the most disgusting shit ive done to myself
Heartbeat normal not that fast I took some hydrozusife earlier anti anxiety med I can't type my body feels kinda hot
 
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bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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I recall @neenie said it smelled like bleach as well


Wishing you peace moonflow3r
 
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injuredbongos

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May 26, 2025
19
I truly hope you find the relief you deserve. Have a wonderful journey. You are beyond brave.
 
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Droso

Born, survive, reproduce, die.
Dec 23, 2024
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Peace be with you stranger.
 
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23421

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Nov 14, 2024
164
seeing you go feels surreal. im so sorry. i hope it was peaceful.
 
LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

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May 20, 2025
415
Hope you find peace wherever you go
 
anonymous2025

anonymous2025

Still preparing to 🚍. 🌈
Apr 9, 2025
371
Oh no. I just read a DM from moonflow3r yesterday and haven't responded yet and now their gone. Makes me feel like horrible.
 
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imtiredasf

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May 23, 2025
82
I hope you find peace from everything that pushed you to this point. Rest well.
 
moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
update: still here, puked a bunch. No blue lips or any other indicators. Catching the bus is way harder than one might think
 
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Afterglow

good god remove my frontal lobe already
Feb 22, 2025
392
I hope you're feeling better today friend.

my friend said it was a relatively comforting way to go. is it similar to the burn of alcohol when it goes down?
 
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Dante_

Global Mod
Feb 27, 2025
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update: still here, puked a bunch. No blue lips or any other indicators. Catching the bus is way harder than one might think
Be gentle on yourself and rest as much as possible, you've been through so much.
 
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mossrabbit

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Apr 12, 2025
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update: still here, puked a bunch. No blue lips or any other indicators. Catching the bus is way harder than one might think
🫂 they say if you drink less than 25g, the symptoms hit a lot harder, if that's any consolation.
 
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moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
228
I hope you're feeling better today friend.

my friend said it was a relatively comforting way to go. is it similar to the burn of alcohol when it goes down?
It kind of feels like alcohol as it goes down your throat. It's extremely salty.
🫂 they say if you drink less than 25g, the symptoms hit a lot harder, if that's any consolation.
I did not know that! I managed to fall asleep and woke up with a migraine and intense need to puke my guts out lol.
 
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