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Carryline

Student
Oct 11, 2025
183
I cann9t wait anymore... Today I should get my SN and hopefully I can CTB this or next week... but I have to admit I am so affraid you cannot even imagine how affraid I am... mostly that I fail again or that it will be super paintfull

EDIT It should arrive exactly in the time when my roommate comes fron work fuck now I am even m9re affraid
 
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Lov3

Amor(Autistic)
Dec 24, 2025
381
I'll be honest with you. Even to die, you have to have patience. If you do it as a rushed test, there's a high chance you'll fail. So try to do it when you're calmer. If you change your mind, that's okay. Only you can decide about your own life. Don't rush.
 
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Carryline

Student
Oct 11, 2025
183
I know abd I still have somethibg to do first .. but i still cannot wait for my suffering to end... also I still have to buy the test and some paintkillers... I really cannot be calm I am in stress 24\7.. also the reason why i wsnt to end it s9 badly
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,991
I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
Good luck! I hope you are able to find the peace you deserve.
In case that's your will, please make sure you get all the right information about the basic guidelines you should follow with the SN (fasting, etc).
 

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