Thank you for your concern. I'm scared because of this whole thing with Kenneth Law. The police went to several people's homes to make sure they were okay, and they confiscated several 50g bags of sodium nitrite. I don't want to be committed again. My last suicide attempt landed me in intensive care for four days and then in a psychiatric hospital. But you've reassured me about the legal side of things, thank you.
Hi, thank you so much. I have a couple questions. I was curious what this meant... "Opioids increase the risk of vomiting, but can be treated with Antihistamines." Taking antihistamines with an opioid reduces chances of vomitting? Isn't that what meto is already doing? I may be confused.
Also, do you think it is worth opiods for pain when they already cause nausea/throwing up? I haven't thought enough about how much pain may be involved... and in theory I don't want to do anything to trigger throwing up.. but I've read some people say that we should all expect to throw up some, and that it can still cause death... do you think that's true? I will have 2 cups and am hoping to stay awake enough to be able to take both if needed... but I know I could pass out. My worst case scenario would be waking up again.
Also, do you think it is worth opiods for pain when they already cause nausea/throwing up? I haven't thought enough about how much pain may be involved... and in theory I don't want to do anything to trigger throwing up.. but I've read some people say that we should all expect to throw up some, and that it can still cause death... do you think that's true? I will have 2 cups and am hoping to stay awake enough to be able to take both if needed... but I know I could pass out. My worst case scenario would be waking up again.
Chemi
*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
- Nov 25, 2025
- 248
Opioids make people nauseous by confusing the brain's "vomit center" and slowing down the stomach.
Antihistamines help mainly by calming the inner-ear balance system, which opioids often overstimulate, and their sedating effect also reduces the feeling of nausea.
They don't do much to fix the stomach slowing or the direct brain trigger opioids activate.
Metoclopramide, on the other hand, works directly on the brain area opioids overstimulate, blocking the signal that causes nausea.
Because of this, metoclopramide is usually stronger against opioid nausea.
Antihistamines still help, but in a more indirect, gentler way.
While Antihistamines aren't necessary if you already take meto, I still included them for people who got opioids but no meto, and just as a general, easy OTC fix for opioid nausea that many don't know about.
what
codeine
- Apr 18, 2025
- 386
chemi, im trying to figure out what causes the exploding head/suffocation feeling, do you know anything about that? im pretty much fine with any other pain/discomfort that comes with SN except for literally drowning on air, this is exactly the only reason why i dont do hanging anymore and if that happens to me on SN it'd be a bummer
Chemi
*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
- Nov 25, 2025
- 248
It is the tachycardia that causes the exploding head feeling. Beta blockers should help. Beta blockers work by blocking adrenaline, slowing the heart rate, and reducing its force, which then reduces the feeling of your head exploding. They are a bit harder to get if you don't already have heart problems, and you can't really fake them that easily.
The air part, well. Benzos make it more bearable. You could try Bronchodilators, but I am really not sure if those are gonna work since your lungs work. It's your blood that doesn't work.
Usually people unconscious when the proper suffocation happens and the shortness of breath starting after around 10 minutes is usually manageable since you will already be mentally kind of out of it at that point.
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what
codeine
- Apr 18, 2025
- 386
yep i have the propranolol i have everything really except the benzos bur i'll be replacing them with phenibut
swankysoup
Experienced
- Feb 12, 2024
- 212
Yeah some of those symptoms bother me like muscle cramps and choking pain
Bless you for this thread. I'm trying to obtain and I'm very new to all this. This is a good starting point
To find SN, do I have to order from every website? Do I have to give a fake company number multiple times.
I can't even select a country for a targeted search; I choose Eastern European countries like Poland or the Czech Republic, and it only finds Chinese, American, etc. websites...
What exactly do I need to do to send and receive private messages on this forum, please? I'm not used to using the dark web. I just want to buy SN as soon as possible so I can leave this world. I'm bipolar, and I already have most of my medications. I'm missing sodium nitrite and a beta-blocker. I'd like to know if I can use Seroquel 300 mg because it's the only medication strong enough to get me high. I also have Nefopam for pain, but is that not recommended?
In addition, I have a sensitive stomach from a suicide attempt that was intended to cause liver failure. I swallowed so much powdered paracetamol mixed with alcohol that it became plaster-like. I tried too hard, so I filled several glasses (10) and added the Valium and sleeping pills last. As a result, I was in agony after only 5 glasses of paracetamol. I had to call emergency services because I was in so much pain, resulting in 4 days in intensive care. I strongly advise against this method of suicide. Now I'm apprehensive about attempting it with medication. I know the SN method will be extremely painful for me because of my stomach inflammation, but I don't see any other more accessible methods. I absolutely need sodium nitrite, please.
I can't even select a country for a targeted search; I choose Eastern European countries like Poland or the Czech Republic, and it only finds Chinese, American, etc. websites...
What exactly do I need to do to send and receive private messages on this forum, please? I'm not used to using the dark web. I just want to buy SN as soon as possible so I can leave this world. I'm bipolar, and I already have most of my medications. I'm missing sodium nitrite and a beta-blocker. I'd like to know if I can use Seroquel 300 mg because it's the only medication strong enough to get me high. I also have Nefopam for pain, but is that not recommended?
In addition, I have a sensitive stomach from a suicide attempt that was intended to cause liver failure. I swallowed so much powdered paracetamol mixed with alcohol that it became plaster-like. I tried too hard, so I filled several glasses (10) and added the Valium and sleeping pills last. As a result, I was in agony after only 5 glasses of paracetamol. I had to call emergency services because I was in so much pain, resulting in 4 days in intensive care. I strongly advise against this method of suicide. Now I'm apprehensive about attempting it with medication. I know the SN method will be extremely painful for me because of my stomach inflammation, but I don't see any other more accessible methods. I absolutely need sodium nitrite, please.
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@Gabriel1987 Can you read private messages or are you not yet enabled?
I wrote to you privately, maybe you need to interact a little more to unblock the messages.
I hadn't seen your private messages. I thought you needed a certain amount of time on the forum to be able to send or receive private messages.
Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 1,633
Are you sure about the irreversible damage? I thought it was either death or a complete recovery. Normally, if you're not rescued with the antidote, death is inevitable, right?
You're talking about drowning on land, but drowning is a painful death. I thought it was a relatively painless death, apart from abdominal pain. I have dental and gum problems; I suffer terribly, but my social phobia makes it even worse, so I don't seek treatment and I just survive in pain. Isn't there a way to reduce gum irritation? If I rinse my mouth without swallowing the water, won't that neutralize the irritation on my teeth and gums? Can cloves reduce the effectiveness of SN ?
You're talking about drowning on land, but drowning is a painful death. I thought it was a relatively painless death, apart from abdominal pain. I have dental and gum problems; I suffer terribly, but my social phobia makes it even worse, so I don't seek treatment and I just survive in pain. Isn't there a way to reduce gum irritation? If I rinse my mouth without swallowing the water, won't that neutralize the irritation on my teeth and gums? Can cloves reduce the effectiveness of SN ?
It's 0.6%, it'll never work. Some say you need a minimum of 95%, others 98%, and still others 99%. I'm also trying to find out what the minimum required is.
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Chemi
*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
- Nov 25, 2025
- 248
If someone ingests SN, their blood gradually loses the ability to carry oxygen, starving tissues, organs, and especially the brain of the air they need to survive.
At first it can feel like dizziness, blue lips, or heavy sleepiness, but if the oxygen starvation goes on too long, cells begin to die permanently.
The brain is hit hardest and fastest: even 10-20 minutes at critically low levels can cause memory loss, confusion, difficulty speaking or understanding words, personality changes, trouble walking or coordinating movements, or in severe cases, a persistent vegetative state.
The heart can develop irregular rhythms or weakness that lasts for life, leading to chronic fatigue or heart failure risk.
Kidneys and liver may suffer acute failure that turns into long-term dialysis needs or scarring.
Survivors sometimes live with constant headaches, vision problems, seizures, or profound exhaustion that never fully lifts.
But complete recovery, with no lasting harm at all, is absolutely possible if medical help arrives quickly and the antidote (methylene blue) is given in time.
Many people who reached the ER fast walked out days later with nothing more than a scary memory.
Every minute matters for a full recovery.
Also, you can kill yourself with 50% purity SN. You will just have to somehow ingest a lot more than the normal dose without throwing it up, which will be very hard to do, hence why the highest purity possible is recommended to minimize vomit risk and maximize absorption into your bloodstream.
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Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 1,633
That sounds very frightening...not painful but very anxiety-inducing...and I didn't know that survivors suffered lasting effects...
Chemi
*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
- Nov 25, 2025
- 248
Well, you are trying to drink poison with the goal of having effects that kill your organs and brain. It shouldn't be that surprising that if you somehow survive, there is a good chance of lasting damage. Good news: with the proper SN dose, there is a negligible chance that you will even survive, unless you call for help / get found in time.
Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 1,633
Chemi
*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
- Nov 25, 2025
- 248
SN really ain't that bad of a way to die. You will be unconscious for most uncomfortable and painful symptoms.
Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 1,633
swankysoup
Experienced
- Feb 12, 2024
- 212
I personally thought that one alcohol drink with sn (not sugary/carbonated) would help a lot with the anxiety, but everyone always says it's not a good idea. I still wonder why.
Chemi
*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
- Nov 25, 2025
- 248
I researched a little about the topic yesterday, and that's what i concluded:
The main reason people warn against mixing alcohol with the SN is that booze can irritate the stomach and increase the risk of vomiting before full absorption, especially if anti-emetics aren't timed perfectly.
Chemically, there's no reaction that blocks or prevents the main effect (the methemoglobin formation and hypoxia). Alcohol doesn't stop the nitrite from oxidizing hemoglobin. In fact, in the acidic stomach environment, ethanol and nitrite can form ethyl nitrite (a gas that's a vasodilator), which might cause extra early warmth or dizziness, or even speed the drop a bit. I guess you can call it more of an unpredictable booster.
The real concern is just gut irritation leading to vomit risk, which could reduce the dose that gets in. That's why guides suggest skipping heavy drinking beforehand. A small amount (20-50 ml strong stuff) mixed right into the drink is possible for taste masking and a quicker relax without issues.
Keep in mind, alcohol doesn't dissolve the SN as well as water, so don't completely replace the water with alcohol.
With good prep, it's usually fine either way, but light drinking or no drinking at all keeps things smoothest.
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